Life Is Like Gambling

Dream

2010-07-23T14:26:00.006+08:00

After so long, i update my blog here...haha....i m sincerely apologized to anyone who reading this blog that i seldom update it due to tonnes of work....This blog lives nearly 2 yrs...exactly 2 months to go....haha....lastly i change a new template...hope everyone likes it...

This semester is going to end after 3 more weeks....time goes too fast....i m unable to catch it....first test of the subjects, i did well....but second test, i did it so shitty....especially genetics and biochemistry....i think i need to be more understanding about these 2 subjects....for me able to do those tricky questions....haha...

Today morning, this is my first time overslept for this semester...last few times i was tired so chose not attend the 8am class....but today morning, i was totally overslept....originally i have class at 8am...i was suddenly jumping up from bed and woke up at 8.15....then realized my roommate was not in the room.....since she is my classmate....i thought it was just 7 something....shit...i was late....haiz....

I overslept because i don wan to wake up from the dream....i always dream in sleeping time...Today, it was a really special which made me happy like hell....and the dream can say probably will happen in my life and maybe wont...depends...

I dreamt of SUPER JUNIOR....OMG....Somemore is my favourite star in Super Junior...That is Ryeowook....I dreamt that I went to Super Junior's mini concert...They have a special & lucky fans session...and i am the lucky person....Ryeowook walked down from the stage and walked in front of me....shake hand with me and hug me....OMG....I am happy in the dream....other than Ryeowook....still got Kyuhyun.....Totally can't imagine....

Although it was just a dream....but it is enough for me to stay happy for the whole day...hahahaha....really crazy la me....i think i had the dream because i keep on repeating watching Super Junior's show ....haha.....i realise Ryeowook oppa is really my ideal type....if my future boyfriend has the character like Ryeowook oppa...i think i will be the happiest and luckiest person....I don't want to think too far....Just wait the fate & moment to come...i wont insist on it....Give time to myself for waiting the true love & perfect guy to come...

P/S: Ryeowook 厉旭 is one of the member in Super Junior....He is the main vocalist in the group....He likes cooking...He is the 'chef' in the group as well....for me, Ryeowook is an oppa ....Oppa is in korean language..it means elder brother for girls to call...He is a gentleman....quiet...and have much manner...

I'm Back

2010-06-08T22:55:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone......Really sorry that long time i din update my blog....this new sem is really busy to me....it seems like a big challenge to me....I m going to be killed ....really hard to breath with this packed timetable....tons of work to go.....So much thing....No end of it...haiz....

This week is a very hard week for me as two test in a week....somemore they are like so hard....omg....biochem, i did...but sure gone....biology of organism is on this thurs.....after that, still cannot rest...got assignment, sgd, pbl....haiz.....really no rest....

Sometimes i really think this world is unfair....The effort that i put in, it is not equal to what i get....This is called LIFE.....Smart brain can get good result.....why??? i doubt it....Less smart brain but work really really hard but why the result is not as good as others??? why why??? LIFE LIFE....Everyone got their own study way....it is really hard to change....and i don wan be forced to change....study way = character....maybe some people like group study.....but maybe gt some people same like me....like to study alone....is this a mistake?? i don think so....i won't force myself to do the thing that i don like....This is my life....not others....

I will try my best to prove that i m right.....although i cant get a very good result, but i have no regret....because i really tried my best....since i m not intelligent enough but i study hard on it....study harder and harder.....i like to watch 'drama' in series non stop....can watch from morning to night non stop ....but now, i stop it....just like those people who addict to drug and stop eating drug....it is hard but worthy....

Maybe will update after next week oh...next week i m going to singapore....visit aunt's family....my new born cousin sister is waiting for me...hahaha....after back, sure will update....hahahahaha.....

NiHoNGo And Final Exam

2010-04-09T11:16:00.006+08:00

Just finished my Japanese presentation....I was really damn scared and nervous....I can't even pronounce the word properly....Phew...After the presentation, i really look like 折寿10年 like that...that's showed how hard to learn a language....But i am confident in learning Korean...Once got the interest, sure can do it well....hahahaha....

Got 5 parts...i think i only answer correctly for 3 parts....hope my mark can be covered by assignment and other coursework....since it is a 100% coursework subject.....ARi SeNSeI looked like disappointing on me because i can't answer correctly for the part of general knowledge of Japan culture.....haiz...It is ok la...everything is just passed....

Next will be my final exam....since i only got 2 subjects for next week exam...but i am still need to work hard to achieve my target....what other people can do, i can do it as well....i don wan to be lagged behind by other people....next sem i think i will be better because busy....once busy, i will just feel like finish everything first....

Just now before going to class, we saw Bing Hou....He is always look like rushing in time....hahaha...Suddenly one girl is fainted opposite of me....Bing Hou saw it....went and helped the other girl....So kind-hearted...But me, i just went off as rushing in time.....The only thing i can say is....Bing Hou, u are really kind....hahahahaha....Oppositely, i did nothing....haiz...failure....

After the presentation, i feel sooooooo relax....just like a whole new world for me....LOL....is it toooo over??? Not at all....really relax....after that, continue my journey to study for final exam....
As korean said, WAN XIN !! FIGHTING !!!!

心情

2010-03-30T10:25:00.003+08:00

如果一个你还蛮在意的一个人，看到你时，好像面无表情，好像不想和你说话，你会怎样？？心情不好、复杂、还是觉得奇怪、不知道他有什么心事？？我希望自己的心会选择的是后者。。。

看到他时，心情会有一点不知所措。。。但很奇妙，我认识他的时间根本就不长，讲过的话更是少之又少。。。真正聊过天应该只有一天吧。。。根本不太可能会有这种心情的。。。这真的是在我预料以外。。。

会不会是我自己的问题？？是不是我太容易有这种不实的感觉？？我觉得自己很善变。。但我分得清楚，什么是崇拜、什么是有感觉、什么是喜欢？

现在的我，希望什么都不想。。。好好地把考试考好最重要。。。。

Why Am I So Slow

2010-03-18T12:52:00.008+08:00

When time goes on, i realize i am just a stupid person. I can't even do a thing well as what i think..Other than that, i feel i am always in a blur condition. I don't know why am i behave like that...But this is what am I....It seems like it becomes a fact....I am strongly admitted that i m really a slow learner....How i wish i can learn faster like other people...but everything is just can happen in my dream land....

Sometimes, i am really regret why am i choosing this pathway...but i can't turn back ...just can look forward and try my best to do that. How i wish i can take mass communication or other media related course...but because of my poor English and poor result in spm, i chose to give up it...

Everyone will think that who taking Science subjects, they are smart...I m disagree with that...I m totally different from other....After enter degree, i really think i m stupid and slower learning compared to others....

Whatever taught by lecturer, i can't know or absorb it immediately.... Worse thing happened in laboratory....In lab, I am totally lost... I read the lab manual...but i can't understand it...I don't even know what is the aim for experiment...When doing experiment, i keep on doing silly mistakes which is unforgivable....Feel really sorry to my partner....Hope i can improve my own skill when doing experiment....

How i wish i can have a good basic for learning....
How i wish i can have a brilliant brain like my sister and brother....
How i wish i can be in same level like my classmates...
How i wish i can do well in everything....
How i wish i am not a slow learner....
How i wish....How i wish...How i wish....

But It seems like unreachable....it is so far away from me now...i feel scared to face my future...I don't want to be burden for other people....I don't want to behave like a small kid...i want to have a mature mind...but....so hard so hard....

Time goes on, i feel i m really lost...lost anywhere and anyhow....i really don't know what should i do....sometimes, tears will just flow out from my eyes...i just can't forgive myself after did any mistakes...i really hope that i can improve myself....hope can learn faster in everything....throw away the name of 'slow learner' from me....I need to do 100 more times hard-work....to let be learn faster...beside that, i am also a person who easy forget things...It makes me harder to learn....But all of these are not an excuses...i know...but am still feel sad about myself...about my stupid, slow, blur characters......

Now it is the time for me to think properly....

P/s: All of that can't be excuses...just the way for me to say it out or express out...I will carry on and won't give up in anything....This is the MOTTO that i keep in mind....I am not the type of clever like others...i just can try harder and harder to improve myself....To avoid slow learning and slow 'absorption'....I will let my tears won't flow out again because of this matter...

K-Pop Rocks!!

2010-03-03T22:06:00.019+08:00

很久没有写华语的 post 了。。。今天就来写写。。写什么好呢？就来聊一聊韩国音乐吧。。。

在十二月放假的时候，受了弟妹的影响，开始听很多的韩国流行音乐和看一些韩国综艺节目。。
我从以前都有在看韩剧。。满喜欢他们的文化。。。现在慢慢地，进入了韩国的音乐世界。。。
我觉得，要在韩国娱乐圈生存很辛苦。。。尤其是偶像团体。。。因为竞争太激烈了。。。

众多团体里，我最喜欢的非 F.T Island 莫属！！他们真的是太棒了。。
F.T Island 是一个乐团。。平均年龄只有十八九岁。。和我的年龄差不多。。。
由五个大男生组成。。。HongGi, JongHoon, JaeJin, MinHwan, SeungHyun。。。
他们的有摇滚，情歌和其他的。。。他们又帅，又可爱。。
第一次听，就觉得主唱HongGi 把歌唱得太好了。。和我同年纪。。。那把极度爆发力的嗓音，很强！！不知觉的就找很多他们的 video 来看。。就越来越喜欢他们了。。很喜欢HongGi 演绎歌曲时的投入。。。还有团体的默契。。。还有他们所弹奏出的音乐。。。好好听哦。。。
唱了很多好歌像 “Sarang Alhee (Love Sick ), BaRae (I Hope), Bad Woman, Please Don't Love, Heaven” 。。。。和其他的。。。。一进入我的 blog，就可以听到 F.T Island 的歌了。。。

他们就是 F.T Island 。。很帅又可爱吧！！哈哈。。

From Left to Right:

Guitar, Second Vocalist, Rapper : SeungHyun 承炫
Bass & Second Vocalist : JaeJin 在真
Drums : MinHwan 敏煥
Main Vocalist (MY FAVOURITE!!) : HongGi 弘基
Leader, Guitar & KeyBoard :JongHoon 钟训

除了 F.T Island，还有一个我要介绍的偶像团体是 BigBang 。。。
BigBang 是一个特色满鲜明的 boyband。。也是五个男生组成。。
是一个在韩国少见带有Hip-Hop 风格的团体。。他们又会唱歌，跳舞，rap，作歌。。。
在2007 年, 队长 G-Dragon 作词作曲的一首 "谎言 Lies" "GeoJiMal", 让韩国陷入BigBang 风潮。。横扫2007 年的多个大奖。。。
好歌包括“谎言 Lies” ，“一天一天 Haru Haru”, “Last Farewell”。。。

Above

SeungRi 胜利，G-Dragon 志龙，T.O.P

Bottom

TaeYang 太阳, DaeSung 大成

还有要介绍一个韩国综艺节目，叫家族诞生 Family Outing。。
这个节目是国民 MC, 歌手和演员到韩国的一些村子里过两天一夜的生活，进行游戏和一些爷爷奶奶交待的家务。。
这个节目非常的好笑，也是弟妹介绍的。。一看了，就上瘾了。。。哈哈。。
From Left to Right:
知名动作演员：金秀路
韩国知名歌手：尹忠信
演员：朴艺珍
国民 MC : 刘在石
国民妖精性感女歌手：李孝利
歌手：金钟国
偶像歌手：大成（BigBang)
演员和模特儿：李天熙

韩国的艺人真的很努力，如果不努力，就没有办法在韩国娱乐圈生存。。。我越来越喜欢韩国艺人了。。。还有，希望 F.T Island 可以快点再来 Malaysia 或 Singapore 开演唱会。。最好是在新加坡，比较容易去。。。哈哈。。。F.T Island, FIGHTING !!!!

2010-02-26T23:28:00.008+08:00

Today is a public holiday again and bored to go back home because i was just backed to inti last monday.....Tired in travelling...So, we spent our happy holiday in Sunway Pyramid....I wanted to have a window shopping after stressful chemistry test....

Ryan, Melanie and I met on early in the morning then took cab to sunway pyramid....in the cab, crapping and chatting were all around in the cab...Somehow the main point will always be there....Bought ticket of "Valentine's Day"....Went to eat A&W....I have really not eaten A&W for so long time especially the 'Float'...Root Beer....

Window Shopping for a while....Then it is time for movie....Something happened in cinema....Got people sit our places....I was damned angry with the attitude of the stupid boy who is the one sitting wrong place of mine....When melanie asked him about whether he sit the wrong place, he just ignore melanie....i got quite angry with that....The truth was one of them booked the wrong date for this movie....What a weird mistake....Making us and a couple like quite embarrassing when standing in cinema for few minutes....swt...Ice met us and joined us when the movie is on...

"Valentine's Day" is so nice....A lot of laughter in the cinema...romance....I can't imagine Taylor Swift act this character.....really good act....i love it....And Taylor Lautner...OMG....He is so muscular and handsome....When both of them show out in this movie, 'Oh Oh Oh' 's sound is around the cinema....I read newspaper and knew that they are no longer a couple....what a waste....

After movie, window shopping again....Ryan planned to buy a converse bag...The bag is so nice...white in color....compared to black, white is more suitable to him....Baskin robbin was the next....EAT EAT EAT....We should call today as a 'makan' day.... Ate many foods...

Ice suggested to go Yuan Steamboat for dinner....It is at bandar sunway which is opposite of sunway pyramid....Firstly, ryan, melanie and I can't find the shop....Walked a long way and finally met ice and she brought us to there....sweating much on my body.....

When reached, we realized the shop was so crowded...the shop has three floors....can imagine how good business are they...Ice brought her boyfriend and had dinner with us together....Some pictures were taken down in melanie's and ryan's phone....I ate so many foods....The steamboat there is quite nice...and cheap....RM20.80 for adult...we just paid RM 20 to ice....Ice treated us drinks and the rest....Thank u Ice...^^....

Back time, We saw the cab which is driven by chinese uncle....He is so nice...And the car is so clean...Although i feel uncle drove a bit fast but he has a good driving technique....so it is quite alright.....

Having shopping with friends Is always a happy moment to me....Together with friends, I wont feel I am alone....They really gave me a lot of joy and happiness....I am lucky as they are my friend...I will appreciate all the friendship that my friend gave...After the movie, i can feel a bit of jealousy in my body...but this is normal....i believe in fate...Someday, i can also meet my 'valentine'.....hahahaha.....Btw, I love freedom now....^^

Chinese Cultural Night....

2010-02-11T00:29:00.008+08:00

我今天超high, 超开心。。。^^...刚刚从multi-purpose hall 回来, inti 举办了chinese cultural night。。因为要过新年了，所以办了这个活动。。。我和komalaa 一起去看了。。。

就像大多数的活动一样，programme flow delayed 。。。这个活动真的不错，有很多精彩的节目。。这次的主题叫做“握虎乘龙新春晚会”。。。在每一个节目的间隔，他们会放一些 video 关于十二生肖。。。其实我最期待的节目就是‘扯铃’了。。因为有我认识的朋友表演。。。

首先看了‘舞狮’，真的觉得他们很棒。。。能在这么高的地方跳来跳去。。是我的话，脚都软了。。再来就是‘二十四节令鼓’。。他们打得很整齐。。很棒。。。然后就到‘舞龙’。。。我对舞龙没有什么特别的感觉。。哈哈。。再来就是华乐。。。很特别，因为有大提琴这种西方乐器在当作伴奏。。。

终于到我最期待的’扯铃’。。那就是我认识的 Bing Hou 带来的表演。。算是认识不久的朋友。。。第一次看到他玩是在几个星期前的exhibition week。。。还和我解释了一点。。哈哈。。所以今天就来看他表演。。。他们是一整组的表演。。。他们表演得太棒了。。第一次看过有灯的扯铃。。在黑暗中闪闪发光。。好美哦。。

让我最印象深刻的表演非武术莫属。。。实在是太强了啦。。。和跆拳道真的完全不同！！来自中国的武憎们，体现出武术的力与美。。。铁头功，铁步山，醉拳，样样都来。。。耍关刀，矛，棍。。。什么都行。。最经典的就是用喉咙和胸口顶着尖锐的矛。。。看了很吓人但很厉害。。。除了武术，还有上海姑娘带来的杂技。。。他们的柔软度超好的。。转座子，转碟子，转布，踢碗。。。什么都会。。。实在太厉害了！！今天我是真正感受到中国文化。。恨他们厉害的地方。。。

还有很多表演，只是现在很累了，想睡了所以就不写了。。。哈哈。。还有今天 molecular and cell biology 2 的　test 1 paper　被分回来了。。很开心我可以考过。。我还以为我这次又会不及格。。还好没有。。哈哈。。这样就可以好好的过新年。。这次的新年我被逼要拿着书本回家。。因为一开学就有考试了。。真是的。。。这次赌博有可能又会输了。。哈哈。。。。

明天就可以回家了。。。开心啊。。已经一个月没回家了。。好想家。。要睡了。。。要等新年后才来这里和大家分享了。。。祝大家新年快乐。。。^^。。。晚安了。。Annyeong!!! ^^

Supper with Pu Min & Ji Na (Korean)

2010-02-06T23:57:00.012+08:00

Today, I had my dinner with ryan, melanie, raymond, lyence, long win, song, hao siang & ging yang at 6pm....After that, i back to the room and start studying my mcb.....

Suddenly komalaa sent me a message that asking whether can help her and bring Ji Na & Pu Min for buying kaya or not....I surely will help komalaa because she is my best buddy...hahaha....After took a cooling bath, i went downstair and met the korean girls....Both of them is just back from malacca....They said Malacca is fun....as a malaysian, i feel happy when hearing that...

So, they said they want to eat dinner as they haven't taken it....So, went to times and looking for kaya....Because of the ' Om Ni' means big sister, she said she doesn't want cup kaya...she wanted a bottle of kaya....Don't have it there....so we went back her room....and i bring Ji Na & Pu Min for eating dinner....

We went to Wong Kok....i explained the foods to them....they decided fried rice and coke...so treat them one 'pau' as they never eat before....We chat a lot of stuff....I know that their idol is 2pm....i know 2pm has a song called 'Heartbeat' and we just sing on the road....haha....and I sang 'I hope' and 'Love sick a.k.a Sarang Alhee' from FT island to them....They smiled to me again...haha....when back time, sing another song 'Bing Bing Bing' from FT island....FT island ROCKS.....

Other than song, i still chat with them about drama like ' You're Beautiful a.k.a Minam'...and 'Boys Over Flower'....Chat those K-Pop....as i only those drama and korean songs.....I am quite professional in korean songs as well......LOLX.....

After back to my room, saw another ' Om Ni' ....She is very kind...treated a biscuit...and i talked hello and thank you to her in korean language......'annyeong haseyo' and 'kamsamhamida'.....This action makes me feel korean people are really friendly and have manner....that is what i see and hear....i even din see the 'Om Ni' before but she can be so friendly to me...OMG...this will never be happen in Malaysia....I shouldn't say that but this is what I felt....

I hope one day i really can go Korea....really really really want to go....I will feel super contented with that.....Pu Min & Ji Na....'Kamsamhamida'.....thanks for let me know about korean culture....Hope u all still remember me when back to korea....^^....

P/s : 1) Family Outing = Family Ka Tok Ta
2) I Hope = Pa Rae
3) Say bye to friend = annyeong
4) Hello = annyeong haseyo
5) Understand = a la so
6) FT Island - Honggi ... ROCKS!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha...
- Hope all are correct....hahaha...

Special day with Korean New Friends....

2010-02-05T22:52:00.009+08:00

Korea is a place that i wish to go....either holiday or immigrate....i really wish and hope that it will be happened on me.....

Inti is having a korean buddy program...that means some of the korean people will come to inti and have a holiday....for them, it is a winter camp as korea now is winter time....They had 3 to 4 weeks in subang jaya for short course of english and now come to inti nilai a week for have fun.....Originally i am interested in this program but i missed the meeting so i can't it....too bad....

Komalaa is one of the helper for this program....she will bring 3 korean buddies for a week....Because of her, today i have a chance to recognise them....but only 2 girls turned up....They are so friendly and manner....This is the thought that i always have towards korean....so nice of them....

One girl's name is Ji Na and one is Pu Min...I love K-POP....Especially FT island....and i told them these as well....they are smiling to me....hahaha...Komalaa planned to bring them to pasar malam...Took bus...When reach there, i scare they will be lost way so i hold Pu Min's hand and Komalaa holded Ji Na's hand....We had a walk...bought a lot of local food...Feel fun....when walking, we saw mr lim, lyence and the gang.....Lyence has car and we just tumpang in his car to back inti....

In car, we talked a lot of K-Pop stuff....which is what i am interested....I sing some part of korean song to them....they followed me to sing as well....Can hear original korean people to sing korean song as live version....it was really bravo....i feel quite contented....hahaha...Back dining hall, Say 'kamsahamida' and 'kumanwa' to lyence....and komalaa and me start to chat a lot with the korean girls....It was so fun....

From talking, i learnt some korean language for them....it is so nice...next time, i wan to take korean course ....no matter what....hahahaha....We took photos and i m waiting them to send it to me....and komalaa as well....Another memorable event in my life...I won't forget today....

P/s:
- Special thanks and really thanks to komalaa for introducing the korean people to me...^^
- Thanks to lyence for bringing us back to inti...hehe...^^
- I hope Korean Language will be one of the language to me in future....Hwaiting...^^

Happy Birthday to Huei Ying !!!

2010-02-03T10:58:00.019+08:00

Yesterday was Huei Ying's birthday....happy birthday to her...hehe....

We spent a very bravo and nice time on huei ying's birthday...Because of yesterday was huei ying's birthday, she decided the place that we go...haha....Ryan, Melanie, Huei Ying, Kent Ren and I were sitting inside kent's new car.....The car is very comfortable of course...haha...and thanks to kent for driving ....5 of us...we chatted, teased, had a lot of laugh....main topic will always be there....haha...No barrier between us...That's great....

When we reached, we took a picture at centre court...as chinese new year is coming, the whole mall is full of the new year 'mood'....It is very nice decoration...

First thought of FOODS was came into our mind....haha...Went to Sushi King....I ate many plates of sushi ...too hungry and happy ...
If we are together, 'laugh will always stick to us'....hahahaha...Especially kent and ryan...really funny....

I finished all the sushi on the plate....hahaha...total is 7 but here is 5...one is at ryan there, one is at kent there....hahaha...

This was the total plate of sushi that we ate....quite a number...kent and ryan ate other things too...

The Picture above is the fish that ryan ate.....Before and After...Put it here for fun....hahahaha...

After finished our dinner, feeling good in our stomach...no hungry at all...We planned to watch a movie....We watched LEGION....To me, the movie has a little bloody because full of blood is shown in the movie...hahahaha...But it is a nice movie to me...i like those action type...this movie don't make me feel boring...and has a feeling of wanted to keep watching...hahahaha...

After movie, back to inti...suddenly we felt of eating supper....then went to McD....hahahaha...eat non stop....crapped at there too...all of the place, our laughter will be around there....Some photos had taken down by melanie...

Yesterday, it was really fun....we joke to each other....even tease each other, we wont be angry to each other.....this is called friend.....Thanks to everyone about yesterday.....i think all of us are happy...and another unforgetable event is present....CHEERS....

My Subjects ...

2010-01-23T15:21:00.022+08:00

This semester is considered quite free...I am only taking 3 subjects...'molecular and cell biology 2', 'chemistry 2', and japanese.....

For MCB 2, i feel i need to put more effort in this subject...consider is a hard subject for me...My lecturer is Mr Lim Chia Hong...He is quite funny sometimes.....especially when crap together with lyence them....He is also the advisor of our Life Science's Club...

For CHM 2, i feel this is the funniest subject in this sem....Dr Ooi is our lecturer for this sub.....He is damn funny and quite 'hamsup'....hahaha...For example, 'Don't put ur dropper to in, we are not making sex'....OMG...it was so funny....i laugh like hell la...

For INTI cert programme, we need to learn one language....Because of INTI does not provide any Korean Language Class, so i choose Japanese as my compulsory language....At the beginning, i don have so much feeling towards this language....all my mind is Korean....But after taking, i feel it is quite fun....It is totally different from Korean...The lecturer is a malay....we call him ' A Ri SeNSeI ' .....

When in the class, i recall back the way i learn chinese & english...really like a small kid....Besides, we have some conversation dialogue with classmates....we don't recognise each other....so need to introduce....SeNSeI will point out the person....I already 'kena' two times...So 'Lucky' ah....hahaha...

Beginning of Jan 2010 session

2010-01-23T14:47:00.009+08:00

For soooooooooooo long time i haven't updated my blog...Feel sorry to all my loyal blog friends....Just starting new semester for my degree life...This is my six semester in inti....I am already used to it about this boring environment.....Although here is boring, but i enjoy the time with my friends in inti....They crapped a lot, making me laugh....really thanks to them....Having new roommate, Nicole, she is very good to me....I realise she has her own principle and she is mature....I am totally opposite of her....hahahaha...that's y my friend called me 'BUDAK'.....hahaha...

This semester, i become the committee of LIFE SCIENCE' S CLUB.....as Publicity Coordinator....Actually i am not so familiar with all things that i need to do with this post....hahaha...But i feel like i really like this club....and try to help as i can...This is the first club that our gang joins together....more meaningful...especially to ryan....hahaha...

The day before yesterday, that was our gathering night....Kah yuong, Fatimah and I were in charge in organizing this event....Thanks to kah yuong and fatimah....Especially kah yuong, really taught me a lot...i have learnt a lot of things among this....We prepared some foods & drinks...Hope everyone enjoyed....when the night, they played games such as music chair....i didn't see it....such a waste...haiz....For example, 5 poses of ryan, dancing of kent ren.

I realise this semester is quite different...really crapped a lot.....sometimes really laugh like hell....I am lucky because i got the friendship from my friend...i will appreciate what i have now....i like the way i am...i doesn't want any changes for this condition...I hope i can live happily for everyday...It is enough to me...

P/s: Thanks to ryan, komalaa, melanie, huei ying, kent ren & nicole for making me laugh like hell....haha.....Thanks to raymond for teaching me japanese sometimes....

1st outdoor gathering with new classmates...

2009-10-31T01:53:00.005+08:00

This is the end of this semester after i finished my mcb final exam yesterday...this sem is fun and not so stress compared to last sem....and i hope can get a high grade for mcb so that can get a better CGPA....Because of last failure, i change my study for this semester and it really works...This sem i learn some new experience in my life...i know how to have a better study way...

Yesterday after our final exam, everyone felt relax and we planned to go Bukit Bintang for Jogoya Japanese Buffet....Include bestie ryan, bestie komalaa, ice, kah yuong, victor, nicole, longwin, lyence, hao siang and tien pui....Total was 11 persons include me...exclude one of my good friend, Melanie...bcos she was having her final exam...long time din come out in big group oredy...i felt very excited and i was so damn happy.....OMG..Jogoya is so nice...it will not lose to the buffet that i tried in orchard, singapore...Jogoya is very standard...It made me become more elegant....hahahahaha...i m just kidding...haha...This was my first time to go Jogoya...It gives me a different feeling towards life..Enjoyable life just like feeling myself was in the heaven....hahahaha...

I ate a lot of sushi, sashimi, deep fried, ice cream and some other foods...Everything was nice...i love Haagen-Dazs ice cream....OMG...There has different kinds of food....such as japanese style, chinese cuisine, teppanyaki, and others...drinks include, blended, cocktail, hot drinks and others...the nicest food for me is UNAGI...MY FAVOURITE...it was so nice....I should try more on it but that time was too full....haiz...hope everyone enjoys the food at there...and had a nice time with each other...

After that, we went to pavilion and walk around bcos it is jz nearby...First time been there..it is very nice ....i bought a boshini shirt that was i love it very very much....and bought three earings...one for my elder sis, one for my younger sis and one for myself...hehe...the night view of there is quite nice and attractive...

From this trip, i feel very happy...bcos my new classmates, they all are so friendly and truly to make friend...very sincere.. this sem, i feel no stress at all when study with them....they are always helping each other..learn together...have fun together...This is what i called classmates...I will truly appreciate this 'one in thousand' friendship....SOMEMORE, i can study together & enjoy my life together with my bestie, komalaa and ryan....i won't regret that why i cant do well in last sem...i jz will think that this is the time for me to change and learn something new...and know this group of classmates...now i know that what i want is a normal life...not interupt by other things include love....

Hope that next semester we can go out together again ...we can sing karaoke together and have fun....this will be very nice....

P/S: There are many photos about this trip....Everyone who added my facebook can have a look on it...hehe...

Final exam & Sem break are coming!!!!

2009-10-24T14:10:00.005+08:00

YEAH!!!! next week is our final exam...this time, i think i will not have any problem with the passing of mcb....n my target is B....impossible to get A....hahahaha....

After final, SEM BREAK is coming.....wooohooooo!!!!! happy happy...i din go back to my home for long time ....home sick oh...hahahaha....before go back home, we must enjoy our life...maybe going to some places....maybe watch some movies and shopping....see first...haha...as long as i can enjoy...hahaha...spend money too....haiz...

Now it is the time for me to study for my final....i must be more hardworking....so that i can get what i want...haha....GOGOGO....

不敢！！

2009-10-18T00:39:00.006+08:00

最近，我有一点不知道怎么办。。。

突然之间，满欣赏一个人，但还没有到喜欢的程度，只是单纯的欣赏，觉得他很强和聪明。。。

我又在想太多了。。又开始自己一厢情愿的想太多。。很讨厌自己这一个缺点。。。

我不知道将来我会不会喜欢上这个人，但我希望不要。。。原因很简单，因为我不敢。。也许是我太没用了。。。我不敢再承受另一个打击。。我不敢再投入任何的感情在任何人身上。。。我怕我又会遇到像上一次的情况，到了那时候，我真的会承受不住，可能笑容会从我的脸上消失。。。

因为这样，所以我不要喜欢上那个人。。。趁现在还早。。。我也配不上那个人。。他是多么的厉害。。。我刚刚一听到他的名字，心里怪怪的，看到他，也会有点不大敢看。。.但是有时候看到他，我会笑得很开心。。。但我想，我不能再继续这样了。。不要让自己越陷越深。。。好怕好怕。。我也希望自己再听到他的名字，不要有任何冲动的反应。。

该不该喜欢上他？？如果喜欢上了，我觉得是一种罪。。。因为在不久前，自己的心情才恢复。。趁现在还早，我应该紧急刹车。。。

CRAZY!!!!!

2009-10-12T18:27:00.005+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......i m so stressed....i dreamt about i got a test on the day and i couldn't answer one of the question of it....OH MY GODsh....i am really too worried about the test...i want to shout...i am going to become crazy....keep on studying....very scared about this test 2....i don know why....not a good feeling....who can save it???? Hope God bless me....All the best to it....

Hate Myself !!!!

2009-10-03T23:03:00.005+08:00

Why am I so terrible??? anything i also don dare to do....like that, how am i to be succeed???? how can i to be a biotechnologist or scientist??? hate myself....disappointing on myself....

Today is moon cake festival...i am not able to go back home...haiz...but i have friends here to be with me....we planned to do one small experiment.....What is going to happen if we put the mentos candy into a bottle of coke??? This small experiment makes me whether am i suitable to be a scientist....i feel scared to do that experiment....i suspect my ability....because i can't even close to it and stand far away from it...am i a stupid rubbish person??? Am i suitable to study science or biotechnology???

Besides, i wanted to record the video of the experiment...because of scare, i don't even dare to close to the bottle of the experiment....i can't get a good video on it....another rubbish i am.....I really feel guilty on it...i wasted my friends time to do the experiment and caused them can't get the good video...I really want to give myself a big kick and punch..I M RUBBISH...Recording a video is a easy job but why can't i do well???

I really hate myself....Hate myself why i have a slow reaction....hate myself why m i so stupid....hate myself why can't i do well in a small matter.....This kind of stupid fellow like me, why will i be in this world??? HATE HATE HATE....

烦恼。。

2009-09-29T21:29:00.005+08:00

自己身边的朋友有一些烦恼。。。身为朋友的我，其实满担心他的。。。怕他因此迷失自己，找不到自己该走的路。。。

谈了一谈，总觉得自己很幸运，因为自己遇到的问题其实不多，烦恼也比别人少。。我在我的朋友身上看到了很多我以前没有看到的东西。。。最重要的一点就是 “迷惘”。。。为什么人有时候会迷惘？？？是因为什么因素？？家庭？爱情？？以我的看法，是这个因素。。。人往往会因为一些刺激，而遇到瓶颈，然后就迷惘。。。他们不知道自己该怎么做。。。由于迷惘，就做了一些让自己不满意，甚至不开心的决定。。。这样还叫生命吗？？人应该走自己的路。。。为自己而活最重要。。。盲从的跟着别人的意思走，这样生命就没有意义了。。。

爱情真的是一个棘手的问题。。。事情每次都有正反面。。。爱情可以让人迷失自己，甚至改变自己原本的本质。。。它会让人瞬间成长，变成熟。。。它可以是甜蜜的。。它也会使笑容慢慢地从一个人的脸上消失。。。多残忍啊。。。

我终于看到笑容了。。这是做朋友最想看到的。。。希望是发自内心的开心笑容，而不是要在我面前故作坚强。。。放下一切，用时间来抚平心里的伤口。。。不要再迷惘了。。不要想太多。。。其实答案就在心里，只有自己最清楚。。。

在我的潜意识里，开心的心和笑容就是抚平心中的痛最好的良药。。。我办到了。。你也可以。。。加油。。。

Happy Birthday to Me & My blog!!!!

2009-09-29T21:00:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday to me & my blog....Last 23 Sept 2009 was my 19th birthday and my blog' s 1st birthday....hahahaha....but now too late to wish myself n write new post here....haha...

On 23 Sept 2009, my best friends (150 club) & my family celebrated a wonderful birthday to me....i was really appreciate and happy....I feel so touched because i know that there are a lot of people that care about me....that is enough for me.....really contented ....

JX, YF, WW and I went to sing k and shopping...crazy on that day...hahaha....high in the red box...jump jump jump....so fun....after tat, we went to city square....took a photo ...edit photos...fun...They gave me surprise...They brought the present from pontian to JB and gave me my favourite cake --> new york cheese cake from secret recipe....really touched my heart....thank u very much to them...

When i back home, my family put a cake on the table...which is tiramisu...that is also my favourite...hahaha...i love cakes....Somemore, my grandsparent, aunt and my elder sister gave me ang pow...my mother bought fried chicken and we had a party at home...my younger sister and brother gave me present too.....They all really care about me....every year sure celebrate my birthday...hahahahaha...

At here, I really want to say billion times thank you to my family and friends....when i face any problem, they are beside me....never give up me....i promise...i will do my best...i will be myself...will not feel sad anymore....I love you all....^^

My 19 is coming....

2009-09-14T18:29:00.008+08:00

Long time i din write in english .....now suddenly i feel like i want to write it...last week, i was unhappy because of something that happened on...I will let it go....i won't let this kind of troublesome thing to make me blur and sad...

YEAH....raya break is coming...it is also my 19th birthday...23/09...actually this is a study week for inti students...but where got people wants to study in holiday....hahahaha....for me, initial plan is i wanted to go singapore bcos my aunt asked me to celebrate my 19th birthday there...but i changed my mind....bcos this holiday is quite short and a bit rush for me ....so maybe go on christmas time...hehe...

We, 150 clubs members are going to JB for shopping and singing karaoke on my birthday day....i can't wait it ....i m so excited wan to go....cos long time we din sing together and go shopping together....i must take a lot of photos as a memorable event...Thank you for JX, YF, WW, and TT.....We must sing until the wall of the Red Box got crack...hahahaha...

I really can't wait ...too excited....my 19 is coming...i got some wishes wan to wish myself....hope all my wishes can come true...

我快乐吗？

2009-09-06T00:13:00.007+08:00

今天一早就和我在 inti 的好朋友去 mid valley 看电影。。电影很好看。。满好笑的。。还有今天早上一睡醒，就到厕所吐了，可能是前一晚喝太多水。。。1 ice blended longan, 1 coca-cola, 和 1 teh tarik。。。哈哈。。

今天的我，真的很不对劲。。心里闷闷的。。。这是我第一次在 mid valley 玩得这么不开心。。。有些事情一直困扰着我。。我真的不知道该怎么做。。。每一个人都有自己的烦恼。。。我和一个朋友在今天的聚会不是很开心。。。因为我们都被某些烦恼困扰着。。。我们很辛苦。。很烦恼。。。

想着想着，突然想到五月天的一首歌 “你不是真正的快乐”。。。好像在讲述着我的心情。。。把那个
‘你’ 换成 ‘我’。。。我承认我真的受伤了。。。需要时间慢慢的来恢复。。

你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了当生存是规则不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活着

新的学期。。能改变我吗？？

2009-09-05T03:22:00.003+08:00

新的学期开始了。。我这次一定要比以前还考的好。。我保证。。。周遭环境改变很多。。我的心有改变吗？我的心态有改变吗？？这是个谜。。。连我自己也解不开的谜团。。。

最近，有点为周遭的朋友感到开心。。。但我觉得自己好像没有像自己想象的这么强。。。我慢慢发现了自己的脆弱。。。可能在朋友面前，我就像是个开心的人，但我心里好像不是。。。我觉得自己很差劲。。真的好想给自己一把掌。。。打醒自己。。。

我说过，唱歌是我最开心的一个兴趣。。可能以前比较单纯，没有了解歌词的意境，所以没感觉。。。但刚刚的我，有很深刻的体会和感觉。。。我刚唱的歌，很多我感觉到很真实。。其实刚刚的我，不是累，而是在想着东西，所以脸部表情有点臭。。希望我刚刚一起唱歌的朋友能体谅。。

其实我应该要开心的，但总觉得不对劲，心里怪怪的，有点低落。。请给我多一一点的时间，让我恢复，现在的我有点不能面对，但我知道这是一个事实。。每唱到一句歌词，都会想到不该想的人。。为什么？？

“拿得起，放得下”，这句话，我说得容易，做起来真的很难。。。就让时间来抚平我心里的创伤。。我需要多久？？一个月，一年，或十年？？是个未知数。。

投入太多的情感，就会伤得越重。。。我领悟了这个道理。。。也活生生的应验了。。也导致了我对感情的信心与信任。。。我没有信心再去喜欢一个人。。。对我满伤的。。心理满痛的。。自认自己坚强但其实不是。。。我太执著了。。

我知道写这篇文章，有点过火了。。会伤到某些人。。。对不起。。可是我真的好想把这一个感觉写下来，就当作是纪念吧。。。看到这篇文章的朋友，请原谅我的自私。。。

是感触吗？？

2009-08-12T01:02:00.006+08:00

突然间脑海里出现了我的最爱 “ 林宥嘉 ” 的 “我爱的人” 这首歌，我也不知道为什么。。。也许是一些感触吧。。。也该回到现实了。。。

林宥嘉 - 我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了他的人生
成家立业之类的等等

他做了他觉得对的选择
我只好祝福他真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
他心里每一寸都属于另一个人
他真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨他的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人他已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见他或她说“我们”
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

令人期待的周末

2009-07-28T00:33:00.007+08:00

最近的心情虽然有点紧绷（考试将近），但是我还是觉得比以前开心。。。可能因为慢慢的在习惯当中。。。

今天有点愉快，看了自己 cfes 的 junior 们的 presentation。。。观后感呢？？该怎么说。。他们有的还是很紧张。。。但有一些真的是蛮厉害的。。。很镇定。。临危不乱。。今天我和同学朋友们也聊得蛮开心的。。。哈哈。。。最出乎意料的是我有一个 lecturer，竟然答应了我一个要求。。有一点点吓到。。因为我以为她不会答应我的要求。。。哈哈哈哈。。。我简直是乐翻了。。让我能无忧无虑的去新加坡。。参加我小表弟的生日派对。。。哈哈哈哈。。。

说到这里，真的很开心。。很久没有看到小睿睿了。。就要到他的两岁生日了。。祝他生日快乐，快高长大。。。看到他，我就觉得自己有点老。。哈哈。。这个星期五，就要坐火车到新加坡了，每次去我都是坐巴士，这次第一次坐火车耶。。新体验。。又可以看到我的家人了。。好迫不及待哦。。。真想快点看到他们。。。好想念他们哦。。。但又觉得有一点对不起他们，因为自己在这几次的考试中，成绩都不理想。。。

我相信这个周末又会是一个开心的周末了。。。会尽量拍多一点照片的。。我这次一定要记得带照相机。。。哈哈哈。。

谢谢你。。。

2009-07-20T02:42:00.006+08:00

老实说，表面上嘻嘻哈哈地。。事实上心里是不好受的。。。谢谢 ryan 知道我的心情和了解我的感受。。谢谢你陪我聊天。。我真的舒服多了。。

昨天下午到晚上，自己都无法真的专心做事。。有一点烦。。。真的希望自己会很快适应然后放下一切的一切。。。凌晨12 点，和 ryan 两个人吃了宵夜，谈了很多。。讲了很多心事。。他是一个唯一一个在我有烦恼时，了解我心事的人。。。他完完全全地了解。。我真的很欣慰和开心。。。至少在这里有一个人能了解。。。

谢谢你 ryan。。谢谢你给我你的意见。。和一些劝告。。对我真的很有帮助，让我知道我应该怎么做。。也谢谢你和我分享这么多你的经历和一些故事。。。你真的帮了我很多。。我不知道如何说感谢的话。。就希望你每天都开开心心的。。相信我，只要有缘分，没有什么事是不可能的。。

说要马上放下，很难。。怕自己做不到。。。我能吗？？我尽量。。无论如何一定要办到。。。我希望朋友可以看到的是我开心快乐的笑脸，而不是伤心透顶的泪痕。。。

给150 club 的成员：
我会好的。。你们在另一边不要担心我。。。主席不会这么快倒下。。不久的将来，你们又可以看到笑容满面的我了。。。但我需要一点时间。。请你们不要骂他，因为不是他的错。。这种事情没有对错的。。我知道你们永远都会支持我的。。都在我的身边。。谢谢你们。。我很爱你们哦。。哈哈。。我会加油的。。笨珍见！！

给疼爱我的家人：
我在这里很好，不要担心。。我不会让这一切影响学业，我会拼给大家看。。我行的。。请相信我。。

林峰 - 爱不疚

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

是该放下了。。

2009-07-19T17:54:00.006+08:00

今天对我来说又是一个新的一天。。值得纪念的 19 JULY。。。

我把心里很久的问号送给了他。。问他了。。知道答案了。。心情有点伤心但有一点平静。。。

哭完了。。就算了。。一切都回到原点。。回到刚认识的时候。。也不错。。不去想太多。。让时间慢慢地淡化这一切。。我还是以前的我。。只是多了一个美好的记忆。。可以伴随着我到以后的时光。。。

我不会再伤心了。。也不会去想了。。。是时候好好的享受生活。。我也不用再为你而烦恼。。为你而伤心。。我撑得住。。我没有那么脆弱。。大家请放心。。。

送给你我的心里话：

你不用为你所做的一切感到内疚。。因为这不是你的错。。。

我放下了一切。。有可能我不会像以前那么关心你。。但我希望我们还是朋友。。。朋友之间的关心也会不同哦。。谢谢你让我长大了。。有了不同的想法。。有了不同的改观。。。生命中除了爱情，还有很多我们该珍惜的东西，例如友情和亲情。。。这对我来说比什么都重要。。我希望你不会尴尬当你看见我。。。希望我们的心里不会有任何的疙瘩。。我会找到一个真正爱我和疼爱我的人。。。
祝福我，好不好？？

对爱情的憧憬又变了。。爱情是会让人又感到甜蜜，又受伤的。。。是时候把一切的一切放下。。就让这篇文章把现在的一切都记载下来。。。在我的人生又多了一份美好的记忆。。。为这记忆画下美好的句点。。。

Heart Is Bleeding.....

2009-07-18T13:25:00.010+08:00

My heart is bleeding..I saw something that i really don't want to see....It really hurts my heart...Is it a fact??? i really can't accept...Should i give up the feeling towards you???

Yesterday midnight something happened to me...i don't know what could i say...i really can't find any excuse to you or myself....are you showing me that you likes her but not me?? can you tell me now??? are you know you are hurting me??? who can tell me the truth now???? many question marks are appeared in my mind....

i really feel so sad...when u hurt me, no one is here..without my family，150 clubs and inti friends...nobody is lending the shoulder to me..i m totally blank...totally died...tears just came out like that...do you know how much i cry for you??? you don't know...

bleeding love...my heart is broken when i saw the scene...especially the action you do...you really hurt me now...please give me some time to recover back....

我喜欢的超克 7 的小禄

2009-07-09T00:27:00.010+08:00

一直以来都满喜欢看模范棒棒堂。。。觉得看了之后会很开心。。底迪们都很用心地在表现自己。。很令人感动。。。尤其是这一季，有15 位底迪。。包括有棒棒堂（敖犬王子小煜小杰威廉阿纬），超克 7 （阿本毛弟小禄鲔鱼小马野兽李铨）和模范三军（阿杰虎牙）。。。堂主范范和副堂主容嘉和小香。。。

底迪们比任何人都很努力。。什么都要会。。很辛苦。。一天里要把一整个星期的节目录完。。是很累人的。。。他们在节目里搞笑，跳舞和唱歌。。都很棒。。。每一位底迪都有自己特别的地方和不同的才艺。。。

在这么多位底迪之中，我最喜欢超克 7 的小禄。。本名是刘禄存。是艺人刘容嘉的亲弟弟。他虽然样子没有其他棒棒堂成员出色。但有着非凡的嗓音和歌唱技巧。连黄国伦老师，林志炫和 DJ Dennis 都大力赏识。小禄即会唱歌又会跳舞。。擅长唱 R&B 和舞蹈 LOCKING。

小禄以新生之姿，打败上一届歌王小煜。拿到歌王头衔。在歌喉战中，也打败了歌手罗美玲和星光三班黎楚宁。每次一有实力派歌手上节目，小禄都会和他们合唱。。也为棒棒堂撑了门面。。好棒哦。。一听到小禄唱歌，整个人都会陶醉。。

跳舞一向来都是棒棒堂底迪的强项。。而小禄擅长的是LOCKING。他跳舞的时候和唱抒情歌的时候很不一样。。真个好活泼哦。。。很强。。

最近知道模范棒棒堂已进入最后开堂。。底迪们进棚录最后一集，我真的很不舍。。真的很希望模范棒棒堂能真的再正式开堂。。让观众们看到他们更多的才艺。。。

小禄和歌手小宇合唱的爱上。。

难忘的假日。。永远都不忘记的。。我的死党。。。

2009-06-30T19:56:00.018+08:00

2009-06-19，终于能回我的家乡，笨珍了。。。很开心。。很期待。。但好像会的不是时候。。哈哈。。因为笨珍大停电。。只有旺来城有电。。还有JX家。。哈哈。。。还有我家里发生了一些事，幸好都解决了。。希望我弟能知错能改。。。阿杉，加油。。二姐知道你可以的。。。不要放弃。。。

在回家的巴士上，和咏诗聊得很愉快。。。还有一个咏诗所谓的 “臭人” 打电话来问我们东西。。就聊着。。超好笑的。。。哈哈哈。。。妈咪带我去 pasar malam 买了好多我喜欢的糕点。。好吃。。回到家，阿姨还煮了好料等我回来。。。实在太棒了。。。

隔天，JX ，YF 和 WW 跑来我家。。JX 和 YF 刚做完功课。。就拉了 WW 来我家找我。。 JX 说她家有电，叫我去。。。我就去了。。还有去找　ＴＴ一起去。。每次都是JX 载我们的。。哈哈。。。谢谢她了。。。

我们就去蛋蛋小厨吃。。老实说，我不是很喜欢吃那里的东西。。没有很好吃。。。重点是拍了很多照片做纪念。。。我们穿着同款的衣服。。。证明了我们的友谊。。。非常的好。。无庸置疑。。。

YF, JX, WW 和 me。。同样的衣服。。我们都好喜欢哦。。150 club rockx！！友谊永固。。

过后就到　ＪＸ　家。。逗留了一会儿，因为ｍｉｃ坏了。。哈哈。。唱不到歌。。。然后就到　ｂｉｌｌｉｏｎ　去了。。。换衣服，唱歌和拍照。。。好开心哦。。。

对我来说，每一次和死党们出去玩。。都很开心。。。我很珍惜这份难得的友谊，从中学到现在。。。虽然我们在不同的地方读书，但１５０　ｃｌｕｂ　的精神永远都在。。。。

就像这份歌词：　　　

歌：青春纪念册　　可米小子

给你我的心作纪念
这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜
睁开眼就看见永远
给我你的心作纪念
我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前
我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册

FRIENDSHIP FOREVER

WW 和　ｍｅ

１５０　ｃｌｕｂ　的副主席和主席。。。哈哈。。改次我去找你帮我检查牙齿哦。。。加油。。好好读哦。。

ＪＸ　和　ｍｅ

１５０　ｃｌｕｂ　的秘书和主席。。。。谢谢你每次都载我们去玩。。。哈哈。。。还有你家唱歌。。。棒。。

ＹＦ　和　ｍｅ

150 club 的秘书助理和主席。。。

希望你每天都像现在一样开开心心的。。

will I fail mcb 1???

2009-06-20T13:42:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, i just finished the molecular and cell biology test 1....that was a night mare for me...

i m scared now...i woke up suddenly from my bed because of i dream that i fail my mcb 1 in this sem....i can't fail...if i fail, how can i study together with my friend...i don wan this to happen....i tried my best to study...but why am i still can't do the paper....am i really stupid??? who can tell me the fact???

i continue ask myself...can i pass this sem?? can i still continue study together with my friend...the answer is i don't know...i promise to myself...i won't think much again...now the only thing i can do is continue studying....i can't let myself fail on this paper....once i fail now, i don't know how to face my family and my friends....this is really disappointed them...

i will start study from now for my preparation for test 2...i m serious now...really....i don't wan to disappoint the person who supports me...include him....even though how tired....i also will stand it..

i really hope that i can pass this sem....i wish miracle will happen...

怪怪的感觉

2009-06-17T22:18:00.008+08:00

脑海里一直浮现一首歌：陶吉吉爱我还是他

"你爱我还是他是不是真的他有比我好你为谁在挣扎
你爱我还是他就说出你想说的真心话你到底要跟我还是他"

有点不知所措。。不停地想。。很没有安全感。。。

有个朋友问过我，我是不是还在等待。。。我马上就说 ‘对’。。。
我还在等待。。但我眼里看到的，所观察到的好像让我有些许失望。。。好像告诉了我你真正的选择。。

也不知道自己还是不是应该静静地等待。。和当他的守护天使。。。但我觉得我失职了。。对他的关心变少了。。。可能是因为功课忙的关系。。。一方面，必须维持自己的功课成绩。。。但对我来说，我不能因为功课就对他少了关心。。。一点也不像我。。。也不会是我的理由。。

PS: ‘天使’ 只是一个比喻。。我长得不像。。哈哈。。

那个朋友又问我，为什么不要去找他认真的坐下来谈谈。。。其实很多人都告诉过我。。但我就是没有那个勇气。。。对于感情，我只会默默的守候，等待。。。。可能自己的胆小，什么也不敢说，不敢做。。。就好像懦夫一样。。。懦弱。。。可能是担心会破坏朋友关系。。而变成尴尬的两人。。就是因为这样。。所以我选择懦弱。。。。

我觉得自己是一个好演员。。在朋友面前，可以装成嘻嘻哈哈。。装着不在意他。。装到好像不管我的事。。。是怕人家知道吗？？所以才心虚的装不在意。。可能吧。。在心里面的感觉只有自己知道。。在他面前，更不用说。。不希望他担心。。只好把一切的一切往肚子里吞。。。但我总觉得他怎样都不会担心我。。。是我自己想太多了。。。假想吧。。。

我另一个朋友问我，你真的要等到读完大学吗？？对。。这就是我的答案。。直到那时，如果他告诉我他真正的答案，不是我想要的结果。。我也会接受。。只能说那是我的命吧。。我是很相信命运的。。

我在嫉妒吗？？吃醋？？我能这么做吗？？不能。。。我怕让他会以为我很自私，认为我在妨碍他交朋友。。。我不想他对我有所误会。。而因此慢慢疏远我。。我不像这样的事发生。。所以我脸上不会表现出来。。但心里却不好受。。。有苦能找谁说？？也只能在梦里，独自烦恼。。我没有理由嫉妒别人，因为我不是他的谁谁谁。。。是这样的吗？？

我有多怕，你知道吗？? 你会了解吗？？应该不知道吧。。。我应该嫉妒吗？

真希望一觉醒来，什么烦恼都化为乌有。。。课业上的压力，生活上的压力。。。让我喘不过气。。。哪怕我会在这么一天倒下。。离开这个世界。。到一个属于我的天堂。。。

PS: 肯定不是自杀。。大家请放心。。。哈哈。。

到 serdang 去吃火锅

2009-06-11T19:42:00.034+08:00

First of all, those photos are from raymond's blog...n thanks raymond and victor for supplying me the photos...thank you raymond... Finally, thanks to mr loh for fetching us back to inti...and thanks to kent for fetching another group of classmates also....Thanks all of the classmates and friends for giving me such a good and excited steamboat dinner....

好棒的一个旅程！！Melanie 问我要不要和 mr loh 和一些 foundation 的朋友，有 melanie, anza, kent, huei ying, darren, raymong, victor, yee teng 去吃火锅。。我二话不说，马上答应。。因为很久没有看到 mr loh 了。。也很少有机会和他一起吃东西。。。所以特别珍惜这一次的聚会。。。很开心也很期待！！

5.30pm，我们就分成两辆车，kent 一辆，mr loh 一辆。。。我坐 mr loh 的车。。。第一次耶。。哈哈。。车里，很多话聊。。整个车程有着停不了的笑声。。。聊了很多。。。很愉快！！

这是 raymond 在 kent 的车里拍的。。mr loh 的车就在前面，我就在那车里。。哈哈。。

我们到了海塘（自助）铁板生锅。。有铁板和火锅。。齐全。。也有很多好料哦。。我们吃了又吃，拿了又拿，好像不会停的一样。。。超爽的。。我的大姐一定会喜欢。。该次在介绍给她。。但是，从新加坡到 serdang，好像很远哦。。 =.= ，swt...

我和victor, melanie 和 kent 坐在同一桌。。。我死命的吃羊肉，实在太好吃了。。。我最喜欢了。。。melanie 和 victor 专吃鸡肉。。。kent 吃很多海鲜。。哈哈。。每个人吃到很开心。。mr loh 也很会吃哦。。哈哈。。。被我知道了。。。

这些是我们 1/3 的战利品，mr loh 吃的占了50%。。。哈哈。。

我们的火锅。。用 ‘金箔’ 包着的是铁板，给烧烤用的。。那烧烤超会喷油的。。我们四个人都遭殃了。。。可是还是烤到很爽。。。

kent 的创意卷。。哈哈。。外面是 ham ，里面好像有 hotdog，蟹柳和其他。。真有创意。。。

正在被烤的 ham 。。。这里的 ham 满好吃的。。。

清汤和 tom yam 的汤底。。。

大家都吃得不亦乐乎，尤其是我。。。开心到要命哦。。。连吃东西的形象也不顾。。。丑死了。。。哈哈。。。但不管了，美食当前。。。吃死它。。哈哈。。。

每个人都吃到很撑。。每人都把水果和雪糕当成最后的点缀。。。来吧，大家来拍一张合照来为这次的聚会画下一个美好的句点吧！！！

Guys Gang:

Standing: Kent, Victor, Raymond
Sitting: Mr Loh, Darren

Girls Gang:

Standing: melanie, yee teng
Sitting: Me (wan xin), anza, huei ying

真的是很棒的一个聚会, 希望下一次还会有这么一个机会。。。

p.s :

I forgot to bring my camera again..haiz...always like that la me...The steamboat is quite cheap.. one adult is only RM21.80...Anyone who is interested can go to serdang and finds it out oh...

幸福点点名

2009-06-04T20:32:00.006+08:00

幸福點點名遊戲規則回答下列問題，並貼到自己的網誌or報台寫完後，自己多加一個問題然後傳給十個人，可以點被點過的人，被你點到的人你要去跟他說，我點到你了。寫完後去跟點到你的人說「我寫完了」不可以不寫喔，不然幸福就會跑掉喔

1. 我的大名 : 菀芯 Wan Xin
2. 我的生日 : 9月23日
3. 誰傳給你的 : 嘉欣
4. 說出五個好朋友 : KWW, LJX, TYF, NHW, LYY...
5. 生日想要得到什麼禮物 : ‘他’ 送我的任何东西。。
6. 近期開心的是 : 去 sunway pyramid 吧。。

7.近期壓力大的是 : 学业
8.未來想做什麼啊 : 做艺人经理人。。。哈哈。。

9.有沒有喜歡的人 : 有
10.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 要。。尤其是mr loh shin king...haha...foundation physics lecturer...

11.跟誰出去最幸福 : 和150 club 的。。。你们懂的啦。。哈哈
12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 劝他们

13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 哪里都行。。只要能和他一起去。。
14.聖誕節要做啥 : 去新加坡的乌节路。。Orchard road。。超美。。
15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : ‘他’。。

16.有沒有起床气 : 看情况。。哈哈。。
17.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 四个 ( 包括我）
18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : 遗失的美好
19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) :很多哦。。应该是你是我的眼，林宥嘉版本。。

20.喜歡什麼顏色 : 浅蓝

21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 会
22.愛不愛我 : swt..不知道。。

23.喜歡男生還是女生 : 男。。swt..
24.最想大聲說什麼 : 我心里的感觉。。。

25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : 当然不敢啦。。吓死我了。。
26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 当然会啦。。swt..
27.誰很欠打 : 某某人。。不想说名字。。
28.現在很迷什麼 :模范棒棒堂一定要看迷爆了。。

29.睡相很差 : 对。。是满差的。。哈哈。。
30.現在的時間 : 8.51pm
31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：不会
32.今天天氣 : 热
33.你懷孕了嗎 : 当然没有啦。。神经病。。
34.你若中樂透最想做什么 : 买新电话，尤其是那种最新的。。
35.大學生一定要玩的活動 : msn...在inti 是必备的。。。

36.爱情这东西能信吗？：不知道别人怎么看，但我很相信爱情和缘分。。。

【點名人物】
1. ryan
2. jia xin
3. wee wee
4. yong sze
5. yin ying
6. chee hoe
7. jet
8. siva
9. wan yit
10. zixuan

01-【４號認識６號嗎】： yes
02-【１０號是男還是】： girl
03-【８號的興趣是】： sleep...haha..sorry, siva...haha..
04-【１號有沒有兄弟姐妹】：got, younger brother and sister ...
05-【７號姓氏】：李
06-【１０號人緣好嗎】： very good..
07-【４號有人追嗎】： i think got ba...not really sure..
08-【承上２號呢】：huh?
09-【６號喜歡的顏色是】：i think is black ba...sorry...i need to know him more...
10-【３號和１０號是朋友嗎】 : don know each other
11-【８號的生日是】：26 November
12-【５號讀哪呢】：南方学院
13-【你怎麼認識１０號的】 : she is my cousin ah..sure noe la..

14-【你跟１號的生日差幾個月】： 5 months
15-【你和９號有出去玩過嗎】： sure got la..my sis leh...don noe go how many times lo...swt...

16-【你喜歡和２號聊天嗎】： very very love to chat wif her...bestie..haha..

17-【你喜歡和３號在一起嗎】： like it so so so much...bestie...
18-【你覺得７號人怎樣】：very friendly ...nice guy..funny...

19-【你覺得９號人怎麼樣】：very responsible sister...loving sis..

20-【你愛５號嗎】：ya..i love her..hahaha...my cousin sis..

1.是誰傳給你這份問卷的 : jia xin
2.你們認識多久呢 : from form 1 until now....long time oh...haha..
3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎 : ya..very important...bcos she is my bestie...haha..
4.你與他(她)的關係是 : 知己
5.請問他(她)的興趣是 : is it sing k?
6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : 开朗
7.他(她)在你心目中是幾分 (10分) : 10

＊睡覺前第一件事 : 脱眼镜
＊起床前第一件事 : 坐在床上，等了一会儿才下床。。哈哈。。
＊你的偶像是 : 林宥嘉，何维健，金贤重
＊你喜歡的季節 : 冬天
＊你打工過嗎 : 有，但只是在自己的店里。。哈哈哈。。。
＊打工次數 : 多咯。。从小学四年级到现在的每一个学校假期。。。

＊你想去的國家 : 韩国
＊你討厭什麼樣的個性 : 对男生撒娇。。。我最不能接受这种人。。。
＊你常哭嗎 : 会。。
＊你常笑嗎 : 会。。经常。。。

＊去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎 : 不喜欢
＊是假日時你都睡到幾點 : 可以多晚就多晚
＊今天的天氣是（晴雨陰） : 晴
＊朋友和情人你會選擇 : 朋友
＊機會和命運你會選擇 : 命运

＊你很自戀嗎 : 有时候
＊這問卷多不多 : 太多问题了。。

＊要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點 : 忘记烦恼
＊喜欢吃什么 : sushi

＊喜歡吃冰嗎 : 超喜欢
＊現在幸福嗎 : 还好。。就差一点。。
＊最在乎哪幾個朋友 : 都在乎
＊房間裡最重要的東西是什麼 : 当然是床啊。。
＊最常夢到什麼 : 没有可能发生的事

＊男人精神出軌要不要原諒他 :看情况
＊你认为人生的意义是什么 : 开开心心。。
＊你知道吗？（看你们怎么回答！） : 知道什么？神经病啊。。。

＊什么时候最讨厌我 : 没有过讨厌你
＊向往出世抑或入世，向往道家抑或儒家？ : 不明白在问什么。。哈哈哈。。。
＊你喜欢吃什么蛋糕？ : new york cheese cake （secret recipe)。。
＊请问这个游戏可以停止了吗？ : 可以了。。太久了。。
＊喜欢沙丁鱼吗^^？ : 喜欢
＊谁是你的知己？ : 上面5个都算
＊IQ/EQ哪一个比较高？ : EQ
＊電腦还是手機？ : 电脑

＊比较喜欢睡觉还是玩？ : 睡觉
＊Friendster 还是 Facebook ? : sure is Facebook ...damn nice..
＊现在最希望什么? : ‘他’ 能过的很开心，无烦恼。。。

Home Sweet Home.....

2009-05-26T21:26:00.005+08:00

Last week I went back to my hometown...Because of busying on study and work that need to do, I got no time to write about the trip that i went back to my lovely home on 16 May & 17 May 2009....hahahaha....

Last saturday, my second uncle, brought me back to pontian home because it was my kind and respect grandpa...He is my mother's side grandpa....treat me super damn good...very pampered me o....haha...This is his 81th birthday....I still remember...last birthday of him, i didn't go back home as just start study in Inti...so fast...past a year already...but for me, i really learnt a lot of things within this whole year....and grown up alot..

7.20am, my uncle came and brought me...we went out for breakfast...but cannot find a suitable place for us...at last, i just drank teh tarik in a mamak stall....haiz....nilai is really a jungle...this will not happen in pontian...Pontian is full of foods...hahaha...all are very delicious...after that, we left nilai at 8am...then we started our journey....On the way, we chatted a lot...Uncle chatted with me about my study and how to study in degree ....

Then, we went to muar and visited my grandma's brother's wife...I don't know how to say...haha...i got long time din see her oredy...when i saw her, she was alright....she is an old woman oredy but still look very energetic...i m really happy to see that...After that, my uncle brought me to have lunch...He brought me to the street that my grandpa owis brings me there last time...i recall back...all are memories...childhood memories...really long time din go back....there are the same ..got a lot of stalls selling foods there...just the new building is built...and i almost can't recognise...haha...We bought many boxes of otak-otak...i love otak of muar....really nice....Then we continued our journey....

At about 12 something, we went to Batu Pahat to visit my father's side grandpa...cos last few months ago, my this grandfather was really sick...we all were so worried about him...now he is alright....wish him can recover from sickness....continued our journey...On the way from batu pahat to pontian, we stopped beside the roadside...pls guess what did we do...?.....ehmmmmmm......We wanted to eat DURIAN.....Durian, my favourite food...hahaha...
This was the first time when i stand beside the road and had my durian...Thanks for my uncle treating me so many many many delicious food....and fetched me back to home...THANK YOU, ER JIU....haha....

Happy moment was very fast come to the end....I was sleeping in the car...Suddenly, a shock came to me...i heard my uncle was shouting, OH MY GOD...when i opened my eyes and took a look of behind, i saw much bloods came out from a motorcyclist...I was totally shocked...No time for me to think...my uncle went out of the car...Then, one 50+ woman was bleeding and my uncle was going to bring her to the hospital of Benut...I am so scared..and saw my uncle were super worried...i m worried also...Actually the accident had been happened like this....When my uncle was driving, the motorcyclist wanted to turn...She didn't see our car...then knocked us like that....The auntie fell down from her motorbike and kept on bleeding....Luckily the auntie were concious...and luckily i didn't study bachelor of medicine or nursing...cos i scared to see much blood....

Because of the auntie was having diabetes and high blood pressure...and my uncle was very worried her...so the two days when we went back, my uncle got no mood to have fun with us and very moody...can see from his face...haiz....everything will be happened...that is the thing that we can't predict....At night, we had a lof of fun ...the whole big family gathered together...really fun....I love my family....They owis will give me the best....I will appreciate it..
LOVE THEM FOREVER <3.......hehe....forgot to take photos again....swt =.= In my heart, one place for my family...one place for my buddies ...and one more place for another person...

Change Horoscope??? How can??

2009-05-24T15:52:00.006+08:00

Why? Why? Why? Who can tell me why? Why suddenly I change from Libra to Virgo??? Why suddenly appear Ophiuchus??? I don't want ....

When chatting with my friend, she told me that the sequences of the horoscope are changed...Some of the people changed the horoscope..from the original horoscope change to the other one...still don know is it will change the personality of the horoscope...I don' t really want it to be change because i like libra...don wan to change to virgo...haiz...everyone can just take a look of the new sequences....Thanks to jia xin for telling me this....

(copied from jia xin's blog)

Aries：04/19 --- 05/13
Taurus：05/14 --- 06/22
Gemini：06/23 --- 07/21
Cancer：07/22 --- 08/10
Leo：08/11 --- 09/16
Virgo：09/17 --- 10/31
Libra：11/01 --- 11/23
Scorpio：11/24 --- 11/29
Ophiuchus：11/30 --- 12/17 (new)
Sagittarius：12/18 --- 01/19
Capricorn：01/20 --- 02/17
Aquarius：02/18 --- 03/12
Pisces：03/13 --- 04/18

Busy Week....

2009-05-21T19:51:00.004+08:00

This is the third week for my degree course....I m getting busier and busier...That's why I m not really updated this blog...Sorry for everyone..hehe...

Maybe I m not used to it for doing work or job earlier, so a bit rushing for me to do my report...I got three labs in one week, include maths, chemistry and molecular and cell biology....I need to pass up chemistry and biology lab report in one week time and need to pass up the assignment for lab work of maths on lab day itself...now only i really knew that why people keeps on saying study science course is really suffer...hahaha....But for me, how hard also i will stand it because it is my own choice....

This week I m rushing my chemistry lab report and biology lab report...It is quite different from foundation's lab report....They are much harder when doing them...haiz...degree life...haha...Beside than precaution, we still need to write improvement and explain why the precautions will be occured...I use my brain to think about it until my brain is damaged....hahahaha....The questions of the report are quite hard to answer...still got results, discussions and conclusions...OMG...haha..

Other than that, I still got the technical english assignment...The one is still ok for me as it got the step to do and not so rush...When doing these all reports and assignments, I m enjoyed on it...really happy and excited...I feel I should improve myself on doing it ....As a degree student, I need to change myself already...I cannot think that I am still under foundation....After degree, i will work in this world and i will face this cruel world...And it will be the totally different from study....

到底我要选哪一个？？

2009-05-05T13:12:00.003+08:00

好烦啊。。。我到底要选哪一科啊？？？ Australian degree transfer programme 还是 bachelor of biotechnology (honours) ...烦透了。。。

本来我已经选了 australian degree transfer programme，但是不知道怎么搞得，上课不专心。。压力好大好大。。。不是读书的压力，是一种莫名的压力，连我自己都不晓得的压力。。。对我来讲，很有负担。。。

选了那个之后，我好像在逼自己做不开心的事。。。读了自己不大喜欢的。。。一点也不快乐。。。有一点不像我。。。这几天，想了很多。。。与其让自己在压力下读书，为什么我不让自己选择我比较有把握，又让我觉得开心的科？？？我也知道，如果拿澳洲文凭，求职机会会高一点。。。

问了家人，大姐和二舅都给了我意见。。。大姐，我知道你为我好，替我想。。。我也知道辛苦了这两年，我可能会有好一点的未来。。。但你又怎么知道我选了另外一个，会有不好的未来？？？二舅告诉我，如果是这两年读了会有压力，这样就选别的。。如果我选了, INTI-UC degree 的话，我还是能出国的，只是选择少了。。。至少我在读的期间，不会担心这么多，也比较开心，不会这么有压力和负担。。。也许是性格和想法的关系。。希望你能了解我的感受和心情。。。但是还是谢谢大姐。。。我这不是一时的冲动。。。我想了很多。。。就连在睡觉都想到这个。。失眠。。

我会选Bachelor of Biotechnology (honours) ，我做了这个选择，我不会后悔的。。。

气死我了！！！

2009-04-09T18:56:00.015+08:00

为什么世界上有这样变态的人？？

连我的内在美也要偷。。。真的是猪八戒啦。。

给我知道是谁偷我的 bra啊，我一把掌给她巴下去啊。。。。

气死我了。。。

还静静的偷。。。变态到。。

还是我最贵和最喜欢的那件。。。气死了啦。。。

猪猪猪。。。。

偷别人的你会比较自在是吗？真的很变态叻。。。

我很少骂粗话也不喜欢骂。。。现在我真的很想骂。。。

真的是妈的！！！

(对不起大家，我不是故意要骂粗话的，是我真的很生气，请原谅）。。。

My pierre cardin ah....一件要大概五十块。。。

干嘛要偷，不会自己去买啊。。。。

猪啊。。。。

变态到要死，偷我的内在美。。。我的天啊。。。。

气死我了。。。死变态。。。

该怎么做？？？

2009-04-07T02:45:00.007+08:00

为什么每次关心我的人不是你，而是每次都对我很好的他？？？
我真多希望那个处处关心我的人是你。。。但你每次都那么冷静。。。
你是没有什么感觉还是什么？？？
我真的不懂。。。

我们是很好的朋友。。。
他每次都会问候我。。。但你呢？？
伤心啊。。。
他问我的东西，真希望是从你嘴巴说出。。。

我知道，
我没有什么资格和理由要你问候我还是什么的。。。
但我真的很希望那个问候我的人，是你而不是他。。。
我会很开心的。。。

有时候，看到你和别的女生一起。。。
我心里就不是滋味。。。
我知道我没有权利管你。。。
所以只能把一切的感觉收起来。。。
再由这个管道来释放我的不安和心情。。。

有时候，我满累的。。
我发现自己有点混乱。。。
到底我要该怎么做。。。
我关心你，但却得不到你的关心。。。
还是我对你的关心，你觉得讨厌？？
我应该从现在开始不管你吗？？

我不会想太多
我会冷静点。。。
想听你的答案和感觉。。。
到底是什么？？

请你告诉我，我该怎么办？？？

好多问号在我的头脑里打转。。。
爱情满累人的。。。
别人会问我，我到底发生了什么事？？
但我选择沉默。。。

我到底在烦什么？？？

2009-04-04T15:37:00.006+08:00

昨天的我，不知道在烦什么。。。我自己都不晓得。。昨天是我最担心的一科，Physics 的 presentation。。。很怕又紧张。。很早起床准备，背好了所有要讲的东西。。。一上了台，头脑都变空白了，怎么也想不起我所背的东西。。。一时慌了手脚，还词穷。。。真的不能原谅我自己。。。顿时觉得自己很笨，为什么不能像 sem 2 的 English Presentation 这样流利？？真想打我自己一巴掌。。。我退步了。。我不能容许这种事再发生。。。

过后，好像放下了心中的大石，有点轻松了。。但还是有些许的遗憾。。。发生了一些事，马上让我的心情跌倒谷底。。。他们。。。haiz。。我怕失去。。很烦。。我的眼睛根本不敢注视着他们。。。在吃饭时，脑袋也会出现那个我不想看到的画面。。。脑袋还一度放空。。。没回神。。。在想，他对她是什么感觉？？？是我想太多了还是他们只是朋友而已？？？

我感觉到的不是这样，我很相信感觉。。。有人关心自己，就叫自己喜欢那个人，到底自己对那个人有没有那种爱的感觉。。。逼出来的爱情不是真爱。。。爱情应该是对那个人有感觉，想为那个人做一切的事情，爱护和照顾他。。。

我的心情就被这些东西给烦死了。。。想去唱 k，就叫了 ryan 和 ice 一起去。。。唱歌时，什么也没想，把一切的不开心都唱出来。。。Ryan 还一直问我，你还好吗?? ryan，别担心，我还好。。谢谢你们陪我出来玩。。不然，我真的会疯掉的。。。虽然唱到喉咙痛，哑了，没有声音了。。我还是很开心。。。因为唱歌是唯一一件能让我很开心的事。。。。

现在这个时候，我觉得我应该冷静下来。。。不要让这些事给弄烦了。。Final 就快到了。。过后，大多数的人都会离开。。。应该珍惜在一起的时光。。。至于他，不知道还会留在这里吗。。。希望会。。

Had Fun At Mid Valley

2009-03-27T00:35:00.014+08:00

Long time din write in English already...Suddenly let me feel like want to write in English....haha...

Just came back from Mid Valley...Ryan, Melanie and I went for shopping at Mid Valley..It was really fun...Long time din enjoy like that already...We are too stressed because of our physics test 2...We studied like crazy...After our test, it was enjoy time...haha...

We met and went together...I seldom go for shopping with them ...So, yesterday made me really happy...Once we reached there, first thing came inside our mind is FOOD...haha..because we are hungry...The idea came from melanie first...haha...Ryan was teasing her...make me laugh like crazy...thanks for ryan making me so happy...owis smile ...Thanks a lot...

They brought me to the chinese restaurant for ramen called 笼的传人...The food there is quite nice....thanks melanie and ryan for introducing me that....haha..I ate 牛腩拉面...It was really nice...The dessert is also very delicious and cooling....I almost want to fly already...too contented...haha...and the 小笼包 which was ordered by ryan...so nice..very hard to find it in Malaysia...It will not lose when compared to 鼎泰丰 and 翡翠...haha...鼎泰丰 and 翡翠 are very famous of 小笼包 in Singapore...haha...Here is some of the photos of it...

My 牛腩拉面...nice..hehe...

My dessert...密瓜西米露....delicious..i like it...

Ryan's dessert...got mango n banana...hehe..

Melanie's dessert...got many different fruits oh...

After our lunch, ryan n I were going to watch movie...Ryan booked ticket online...very fast motion oh..haha...We watched ' Dragon Ball Evolution '...It was so interesting...In the movie, it has action, love n helpfulness...so nice...I always watch movie at JB and Singapore...never watch in mid valley....Luckily ryan brought me oh, if not, i really will lose the way in cinema...haha...omg..The movie is finished oredy...but i was still asking ryan ...y is it so fast finish? cos it is too nice oredy...very attracted me..

Then, we went and looked for melanie...melanie is a very cute girl ....she will ask us about the opinion...actually all are also very elegant and suitable...went to esprit, Levi's and others....For me, i was keeping on eating...NON- STOP...haha...fat..fat..fat ...hehe...ate tempura again...delicious...recall back the time in Singapore....We met huei ying and kent ren...after kent ren's presentation, this couple came n look for us...haha...i don wan to be the light bulb oh...haha.....

Shopping..eating...din stop at all...haha...we went to The Garden oso...there are so high class oh...can see but cannot buy because too expensive oredy..haha...looked for chee hoe's rubik's cube oso...but it is too expensive...so din buy...after tat, eating time again..haha...we ate ice-cream.....this was my first time eating the one...i owis eat haagen denz...cos i like the taste of the ice cream...but this ice cream that i ate are better ....i put topping and chocolate sause..nice..forgot to snap picture..

Then, we are separated...we don't want to be the light bulbs oredy..haha...actually was we wanted to watch movie...but huei ying n kent ren 's one is 9pm...ours were 6.30pm..so can't together...they decided to play bowling...then melanie, ryan n i watched movie...we watched ' The Tales of Despereaux '...This is oso a very nice movie...It is about rat and mouse movie...got many moral values inside..haha...actually because of forgiveness, then everything will be changed....

Then, they accompanied me to sushi king...sushi is my favourite...haha...we are not really hungry...so ate a few only...but i still maintained my standard level....eat about 7 plates...haha...crazy...almost want to vomit...shiok...haha...went to converse because ryan wanted to buy a bag....we wanted to go back jungle (inti) oredy...haha...suddenly, ryan stopped his step because he saw a rubik's cube...hahahaha....ryan, well done..like tat oso can see...good observation...haha...then chee hoe decided to buy it...everyone is helping chee hoe..haha...bcos melanie remembered and reminded want to buy ...ryan saw the rubik's cube ...and i paid for it first..hahahaha.....

On the way back, we chatted a lot...crapped a lot..we chatted about nicole, the things happened around us...and recalled back everything happen in first sem....thanks for melanie and ryan...let me know the truth...n gave me a wonderful shopping trip..haha....

I am really happy for this...but when back from ktm to inti, the taxi driver drove too fast...made us want to vomit oredy...haha...that is the only unlucky part of the happy day...hehe...

Jet's Birthday Party

2009-03-17T01:28:00.014+08:00

昨天晚上帮了我的 senior, 也就是 Jet 庆祝了生日，希望他能天天开心，然后感动因为我们帮他庆祝。。哈哈。。Senior, Happy Birthday!!! 生日快乐！！

其实昨天不是他真正的生日，我们提早帮他庆祝了。。他的生日是在 3 月18日。。哈哈。因为在他的生日，我们有考试，没有什么时间。。之前道扬有问我关于庆祝的时间，但不确定。。上星期六，就找了志豪，道扬和义安来讨论。。最适合的时间就是昨天了。。哈哈。。道扬还说 Jet 出生在错的时间。。。好好笑哦。。哈哈。。。

我和 victor 就负责通知同学。。siva 和我也到学校的 bakery 订蛋糕。。那蛋糕还满不错的。。志豪就负责骗 jet。。哈哈。。给他惊喜嘛。。。哈哈。。由于人数蛮多的，所以又拜托 ice 到 giant 买蛋糕。。谢谢大家的帮忙，才能有这么好玩的生日party。。

志豪很顺利地把 jet 骗到 cafeteria 来。。哈哈。。我们大家都在那里等了。。当他朝我们走来时，ice 就捧着蛋糕出现在他面前。。希望他有感到惊喜。。

大家吃着蛋糕，喝着汽水，聊聊天，拍照，闹着玩。。。。彼此间的感情有加深了。。多么有意义啊。。。我就很喜欢这样子。。有点后悔，就是忘了带我的相机。。。T.T....哈哈。。。

Surprise, senior !!!! haha!!!

Jet...R u touched n happy??? hehe...

two cakes..so nice ..

everyone celebrated for jet...

chee hoe, dao yang, jet, yi an n jing ren..

good brothers....

wee yuan, yuki, jet n ice

chee hoe, yi an, komalaa n me...

angie n darren..one pretty n one

handsome....but not couple..haiz...haha..

哭泣

2009-03-12T15:09:00.004+08:00

我以前读书，是因为我姐姐，中学读书时，是为了我自己，现在的我，就像我博客里所写的，我是为了我和他。。。我刚刚会哭不是为了我自己而哭，我是为了他。。。因为如果我再考不好，我就不会有机会和他一起了。。这不会是我想要的结果。。。

当听完mr loh 所讲的，我觉得他说的都是对的。。。我还有的救。。以我的成绩来说，不应该拿这种烂成绩的。。我有点让 mr loh 失望了。。。我觉得自己变了。。变得没有像以前那么用心读书了。。。是诱惑太多吗？？还是感到疲倦了？？我真的很乱。。我会更努力。。只要有了目标。。就可以很努力了。。。我答应过他，我会好好读书，我一定做得到。。。不要放弃。。

这是我第一次因为自己的成绩不好而哭泣。。我真的好害怕，好害怕不能和他一起读书。。我在哭时，他没叫我不哭，反而是让我哭完，然后冷静下来。。。他才开导我。。他一直叫我放心，他说还有时间，叫我慢慢来。。我真的不知道要怎样慢慢来，眼看考试就要来了。。我真的很怕。。很怕考不好。。

今天的我，有开心，又伤心。。。开心就让我上到天堂，不开心时，就好像跌入地狱。。我说我弄不好那个东西，我就不姓陈。。他就和我说，那你和我一起姓吧。。还有，他还说：“你哭，我也会哭”。。。蛮好笑的。。哈哈。。还一直逗我。。要流出来的眼泪，也慢慢的反地心引力的收回了。。。

过了我的无聊情人节

2009-02-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

我真的就这样过了我的无聊情人节。。。昨天的我，睡到很迟才起床。。自己真的很想睡到隔天早上。。。因为我真的不想过这一个对我来讲，一点也没有意义的情人节。。真的好无聊。。。

一起床，就对着电脑，什么也没有做，连想读书的心情也没有，怎么办啦？？我等了一整天，等不到自己想要的东西，有些许失望。。。

朋友问我，为什么不要我自己买一份礼物，然后送给他。。。我自己也不知道。。。我只知道，我必须保持着女孩子的矜持，也不知道自己这么做对不对，但我知道，在我的潜意识里，情人节是一个男孩子对一个女孩子表白爱意的时候。。。所以我做了这个决定，我不会送他。。应该有保留一点矜持吧。。。我从来没有后悔过我做的这个决定。。。也许这个决定，会让他觉得我对他没感觉了。。。其实是错的。。。我对他的感觉是不会变的。。。我是一个很相信自己感觉的人，我的感觉是不会错的。。。

我和他没有什么特别的关系，也不能要求什么。。。过了这个情人节，我不晓得自己的心会不会就这样被动摇。。不会。。。我不会这么容易放弃的。。。这次不同。。。真的不同。。除非是他自己告诉我。。。我不可以被这个情人节给打倒的。。。

有时候我会觉得自己很累很累。。。我对他的关心，他感觉到吗？？他在压抑吗？？还是他根本就没有感觉？？？我会怀疑可能是自己一厢情愿。。还是他对我一点感觉也没有？？我甚至会怀疑我自己这样打扰他，好吗？？他会觉得我烦吗？？我在干扰他的生活吗？？我想对你说，如果我真的打扰到你，对不起。。

我怕自己有一天会这样倒下，对爱情失去信心。。。

要怎么样过我的情人节啊？？

2009-02-09T01:15:00.006+08:00

情人节就快到了。。我该怎么办。。。那时候的我，应该我怎样压抑自己啊？？我真怕自己压抑得受不了。。

有时候，在路上看到一些很甜蜜的情侣。。自己心里就有一种嫉妒。。到了情人节那一天，学校应该会是满满的情侣吧。。。我应该要怎么过，在自己的房间里，不要到楼下？？还是应该到楼下去感染一下那种情侣在一起的甜蜜？？还是和几位好友出去玩啊？？

到底该怎么过？？每一年都在家里，有家人陪伴，才不至于这么孤单。。今年，我感到非常孤单。。。身边有几位朋友都有情人陪伴，自己呢，就只能待在一个属于自己的角落。。。看着楼下的情侣，心里就更加的孤单。。。

也有人会在这特别的日子，向自己心仪的男生或女生告白。。。好好哦。。。自己会得到什么特别的惊喜，对我而言，这只是一场梦。。。只有在梦里才会出现的情景。。。我连想也不敢，也不奢望会得到什么惊喜。。。

最喜欢的巧克力，也只能在梦里得到。。。

祝天下的情侣，情人节快乐。。。永远甜蜜。。。

很好玩的生日party哦。。。

2009-02-07T12:40:00.011+08:00

昨天真的是太想睡觉了。。因为前一天有gathering night。。所以满迟睡的。。所以昨天非常累。。可能因为不够睡的原因，今天就喉咙痛了。。每次都是这样的。。气死人了。。

昨天的我，要帮一个人庆祝他的生日，要给他一个惊喜，想着要用什么理由去他家。。那个人就是志豪。。哈哈。。结果我想了一个超级无敌烂的理由。。我真的不适合讲骗话哦。。烂透了。。他跟我说过，他从来没有庆祝过生日，因为大多数他的生日，都在过农历新年。。。从那刻起，我就打算了要帮他庆祝生日了。。希望他会有一个难忘的生日。。。

下午的时候，michelle, jet 和 victor 就负责买蛋糕和一些汽水。。我发现虽然是我向他们提议要庆祝生日的。。可是自己又没有帮到什么忙。。还好有michelle 在筹备，不然我都不懂应该怎样了。。哈哈。。谢谢michelle。。

其实他的生日是在这个星期日，我们早帮他庆祝，一上完课，就要马上去他家。。因为他的好朋友要回家。。。其他的朋友就先到艾凌家集合，我和志豪两个人一起走到他家。。我都快露馅了啦。。不知道他有没有发现啊。。哈哈。。我们聊得还蛮开心的。。

一到他家，我就有一点露馅了。。。烂到要命啦我。。。我都快没有骗话讲了啦。。为什么michelle 还不要上来啦。。有人敲门了，志豪去开门，就在这时候啊，siva 和 ken 就站在门外，michelle 就捧着蛋糕出现在志豪面前，唱了生日歌，他应该会有感到surprise 吧。。哈哈。。

我们也开始在他家玩闹，拍照等等。。好好玩哦。。其实我只是提醒大家他的生日快到了。。就问大家要怎样帮志豪庆祝。。有没有去帮忙买东西。。有点惭愧啊。。。哈哈。。

我把我买的礼物送给他。。希望他会喜欢。。。哈哈。。。

宥嘉要开唱了。。请注意！！！

2009-02-03T22:27:00.005+08:00

宥嘉要在新加坡开唱了。。大家请注意！！这一定会是一场非常棒的演唱会。。。请多多支持Yoga 林宥嘉。。

林宥嘉『迷宫』新加坡演唱会2009Yoga [Trick] Concert Live in Singapore 2009
日期: 2009 年2 月 20 日 (星期五)
时间: 晚上 8 点
地点: 新加坡室内体育馆

林宥嘉也会为了那场演唱会而办签唱会哦。。

林宥嘉『迷宫』新加坡演唱会2009签唱會
日期：2009年2月15日（星期日）
時间：下午3 点
地点：IMM三搂舞台

请大家能多多支持这位第一季超级星光大道第一名

听演唱会来亲眼目睹林宥嘉的舞台魅力和亲耳听听林宥嘉的迷幻歌唱实力吧！！！

过年大回顾。。开心。。

2009-02-03T18:18:00.015+08:00

好开心哦。。过农历新年了。。我最喜欢就是过新年了。。星期五的时候，背着我重重的行李回我的家乡，笨珍。。。我真的很兴奋。。。一到了店里，就拿了很多衣服。。。当过年的衣服嘛。。其实我已经买了一些。。哈哈。。回到家里，就有了过年的气氛，阿姨已经把过年的饰品掉上。。今年少了一样，那就是银柳。。。可惜。。。

星期六早上就到店里帮忙，顾客满多的，有点忙。。。到了下午，终于可以去理发店，把我凌乱的头发给整理一般。。离子烫，护理，染发，通通来。。哈哈。。人家要美美的过年嘛。。哈哈。。。结果还蛮好的。。。可是花了好多小时哦。。差一点睡着。。。哈哈。。。

今天是除夕，亲戚们都从不同的地方回来了。。。我喜欢大家在一起的感觉。。我觉得表弟妹都长大了。。跟他们比起来，自己还蛮老的。。哈哈。。阿姨准备着团圆饭，想到可以大家可以坐着一起吃，超开心。。。回到自己的家冲凉，然后就到外婆家吃团圆饭。。阿姨准备的火锅汤底好好喝哦。。无人能敌。。。哈哈。。。要到十二点了，我们全家人就到门外，等待，因为。。要放鞭炮哦。。有可以和邻居们聊天。。五彩缤纷的烟花出现在天空。。好美哦。。瞬间感觉，如果有他在我身边，跟我一起过年，我真的会很开心很开心。。。还有收到他寄给我的信息，也蛮兴奋的。。感觉到他在不一样的地方，和我一起倒数。。。

过年的第一天，我们一家人必须到Batu Pahat 的大伯家跟我公公婆婆拜年。。满好的，收到很多红包，那是当然的，我们家是大家庭嘛。。去了Batu Pahat Mall，想买鞋子，但是找不到适合的，放弃了。。晚上时，到了姑姑家吃晚饭。。我发现我的公公婆婆真的老了，我应该放多一点心思在他们身上。。。

初二是我外婆的生日。。我们一早就到外婆家了。。。和亲戚们赌博耶，哈哈。。好好玩哦。。要到酒楼了，每个人都梳妆打扮。。。今天不只是帮外婆庆祝生日，也帮大姐三姨和表姐庆祝他们的生日。。好热闹哦。。表姐好久没回来过年了，都在澳洲。。

初三留在家里，因为亲戚要来我们家拜年。。晚上时，爸爸就请亲戚朋友到顺风阁吃饭。。。顺风阁的食物水平掉了。。服务态度又不好。。所以明年爸爸打算在家里摆自助餐。。哈哈。。好好好。。哈哈。。

初四了，时间过的真快，亲戚们都要回家了，我们家的传统就是，如果有一家人要回家，我们就会在大门那里，和他们说再见。。。不是一两个人，而是全部人。。真的很有亲切感和家庭凝聚力。。。

今天（初五）很开心哦，我的朋友会来我家拜年耶。。哈哈。。在我家打麻将，唱K，玩牌，样样来。。每个人都不顾仪态了。。。玩疯了。。哈哈。。。我打麻将时有赢钱哦。。怎么知道在玩牌的时候，就输光光了。。。哈哈。。。大家认识很久了，又在不同的地方读书，相处时间少了很多。。。拍了很多照片。。。

初六像平时一样，在家里，弟弟和妹妹的朋友来我们家。。有点乱。。太多人了。。哈哈。。初七就要回学校了，真的不喜欢回学校，没有家人在我身边，我必须独立。学校有点闷，无聊。。。这次的新年，我过得非常的开心。。。和朋友家人在一起，是很幸福的一件事。。。虽然我的新年，我和他在不同的地方，可是我感觉我们是这样的靠近。。。

Amazing Words...

2009-01-14T17:11:00.002+08:00

I learn to laugh, when you laugh with me...
I learn to care, when you care for me...
I learn to love, when you love me...
I learn to cry, when you leave me

You was the smile on my lips....
You was the happiness on my face...
You was the beauty of my heart....
and you was the tears of my eyes....

很想睡的一天

2009-01-13T19:08:00.007+08:00

今天是10-12 noon 的课。。不知道为什么我特别累。。我应该是昨晚没有睡好，昨晚明明自己就很累，可是不懂自己为什么就是睡不着。。一直在想东西。。都不知道我应该想他吗。。那他呢？？他好像也是睡不好。。不知道他还好吗。。

本来以为我上完课了，可以睡觉睡到爆，哪里知道突然mr loh 告诉我今天我有lab 要上。。可是原本就不是这天的嘛。。好烦哦。。。搞到自己的头一直痛。。。没办法。。

上完课了，看到 ryan。。和他聊了一下。。他鼓励我，要争取自己喜欢的。。不能放弃。。我真的很谢谢他。。Ryan, 谢谢。。。

就这样，希望今天我可以睡好一点，头超痛。。希望他也能睡好一点。。。这样对身体会比较好。。。。

开始上课了。。我该怎么办？？

2009-01-06T17:49:00.004+08:00

星期六就回来学校了。。这次会有点早回来，因为想把肮脏的房间给清理干净。。才有心情去面对新的学期。。这学期会发生什么事？？我也不知道。。

在要去上课之前，去了MPH 那里enrol。。好多人哦。。然后去吃东西。。我遇见Darren和 Jason,很喜欢和Darren 聊天，因为他好好笑哦。。他是一个很健谈的人。。还有猜我看到谁？？我好像是看到了跟我们以前学校的风云人物，超级大帅哥，也是我的一名远亲，政尧。。可是我不大肯定是不是他。。但我有90% 的信心是他。。哈哈哈。。他超帅的。。但Darren 觉得那个人还好而已。。哈哈。。昨天是第一天上课，那个chemistry 2 的lecturer是马来人。。他的解释让有些同学不是很明白。。包括我自己在内，有点不明白。。

今天是mr loh 的课，我好像说错了一些话。。很懊脑。。为什么我总是说话没经过大脑？？真是的。。Mr loh 告诉我们，我们Biology 1 的老师辞职了，她是一个很好又很有责任感的老师。。。

有一个人没有来上课，应该是不想上吧。。希望不是因为我哦。。应该没有什么可能啦。。哈哈。。吃完我的午餐后，我就去seremban买票了。。在学校的巴士站，看到了victor, yoyo, melanie, yeeteng, sher lynn 和 anza。。。除了他们还看到我的senior 他们。。好巧哦。。我才不至于这么闷因为我是一个人去的。。

一个人的时候是孤单的，总希望有人能在身边陪伴。。我总是会想到他。。。这次的感觉不是一时的，我可是很认真的，希望他知道。。我对他的关心会比对我自己的关心还要多。。就好像“黑糖群侠传”里，任莹莹（小薰饰），对令狐聪（王子饰）的爱。。。任莹莹说：“喜欢和爱一个人不只是保护他，照顾他。而是会为了自己喜欢和爱的人吃不下饭，睡不着觉。” 这句话深深地印在我的脑里，我也同意。。真的是会睡不着觉，因为满脑子都是他。。

You'll be in my heart forever....

2008-12-27T19:45:00.010+08:00

Last week, one of my good friend left me..She promised to me..She will come back and study with me together..but she left me forever..hope she can rest in peace...

I was shocked..When I woke up, I heard one bad news for me..Nicole left me..Suddenly, my mind was blank...And the tears came out from my eyes..I cannot control myself...I felt very very sad..I really don't know what should I do....

That time she told me her condition...It was very dangerous...Need to do operation....I worried about her....she told me that, please don't tell anyone her condition....so i just keep quiet...

She treats me very good...She taught me a lot of things....I am really very happy got Nicole as my friend...We can recognise each other in Inti..I think this is fate..i am really appreciate it..

People will say that she left us last week ..why you now only write this post?? It is because i really don't know how to face this fact...Nicole left me....She left me...I suddenly felt down until the max...Every night before sleeping, nicole will appear in my mind....My tears came out again and again....

I try my best to become happy..because nicole doesn't like me look sad...when i am sad, she owis will comfort me..so i must become happy...I know that nicole will owis be around me....She is in my heart forever...i will not forget her....

I promised to her..If she cannot come back, she hoped that i can study well and helped her to continue her dream....that is try to get a good result....

Nicole, I hope you can rest in peace...i know you are around me...i will help you to continue your dream...I will try my best...Nicole, I miss you....

要回家了。。是开心还是伤心？？

2008-12-13T00:34:00.006+08:00

我多几个小时就要回家了。。。蛮开心的，因为好久没回家，好想家哦！！我想念家人，亲戚和我的旧同学，朋友。。还有我的床，阿姨煮的好料，还有我最喜欢吃的宵夜。。哈哈。。变胖了也没关系。。哈哈。。在笨珍有很多回忆，是我这一辈子都忘不掉的。。

要回家了，要多两个星期才回来学校。。又伤心，又开心。。好奇怪哦。。我到底是怎么了？？我应该开心的。。不可以伤心啊。。回到家，就可以看到关心我的家人，但我却不能看到他。。以前从来没有的感觉。。他好像不断出现在我脑海里，连梦都会梦到。。每次我都不想起床，我的室友以为我是太累，其实不是，因为我想在梦境里。。

最近的我满奇怪的。。明明考完试，应该开心，但我好像不是很开心，表面上是开心的，但心里却不是。。我隐藏得蛮好的吧？？应该没人发现，那就好。。考完试就放假了，放假就不能看到某人了。。我们的距离好远哦。。

下个学期的我会怎样啊？？我不知道。。那也是最后一个学期了。。很多朋友都会分道扬镳。。他呢？？会走吗？？我不懂。。如果他走的话，是不是会读到他比较喜欢的课程呢？？我希望他会做一个他不会后悔的决定。。这对他才是最重要的。。只要他开心就好。。 只要他开心，我也会很开心的。。会舍不得吗？？会的话，我也会尽量压抑自己的情绪。。。我不想看到他不开心。。

回家后，也要开始我的‘筹备生日礼物大计划’，哈哈。。还有我要去唱 K ，把一切的想念都唱出来。。毕竟唱歌是我最喜欢做的事。。在多个小时就要回家了，下个学期见。。你要照顾自己哦。。要玩得开心一点哦。。

考试中。。加油。。

2008-12-08T11:59:00.011+08:00

明天就是我的 biology 1 paper, 有点紧张，怕自己读的会忘记。。要加油了。。有人会说都在考试，为什么还有时间写 blog，因为我想抒发我紧张的心情，不然我会疯掉。。哈哈哈。。

昨天的我读书读到满累的，满迟睡。。要背那些生物名词，有点辛苦。。可能我的记忆力满差的吧，要很努力背才能记得。。要读很多次才能了解。。哈哈。。昨天的我可是蛮开心的，短短的五分钟，竟然能让我从地狱直接到天堂，哈哈。。之后我就很有活力读书了。。之后的我读的东西，很容易就进脑。。还有，我知道他对我的关心。我不管他是不是对其他人都这样关心，但我知道他是关心我的，那就足够了。。除此之外，他好像还蛮在乎我的。。事实是如此吗？？是不是我想太多了呢？？只有他最清楚。。哈哈。。开心。。我答应过他，我会读书。。我就一定会做到。。这应该能算是承诺的一种吧。。

考完试后，就是假期了。。我有一个计划要进行。。有人的生日快到了，算算一下，该开始准备了。。我想给那个人一个惊喜。。我不知道他会不会觉得开心或惊喜。。我会尽量做到。。

十分开心的一天。。

2008-12-07T00:59:00.006+08:00

今天的我好开心，考完 Moral 考试，好像放下心中大石。。好舒服哦。。他好像听懂我的话，要他带的东西他有带，他没有和我交谈，但我明白为什么。。。回到房里，会因为没和他说话，有点怪，但还好，至少看到他一眼。。回到房里，觉得自己好累，想睡觉。。于是就睡了。。

一觉醒来，什么都不同了。。好像做梦一样。。我真的好开心，他对我说了真心话，他的答案是我没有预料的。。真的是一个让人满意的答案。。我再也不知道怎样对他说。。他好像什么都明白一样。。他知道我的感觉，我知道他的感觉。。原来如此。。我明白他的处境。。我以为我这辈子都不会听到满意的答案，但他说了。。他告诉我，我没做梦。。是现实。。

我们把问题放一边，现在关键的是读书。。我们都大了。。知道怎样处理事情。。我们等待的是时间。。。我答应过他我会读书的。。我答应过他的，我就会尽力做到。。我不在乎多辛苦，我都会很努力很努力。。现在在我心里，我读书努力的目的很简单。。我有了读书的推动力。。以前的我，是为了自己的未来而拼，未来的我，为了他和我自己。。不管读到再累，我都不会放弃。。

对他，更不用说。。我更加不会放弃。。就算未来的日子有多辛苦，我都会熬。。我会撑着，请你不要担心我。。。

心情。。

2008-12-05T18:22:00.013+08:00

现在的心情，可以用这首歌来形容。。。

何维健 - 我相信

我相信生命中会有一见钟情的剧情
曾被爱伤害的心不容易倾心你的眼神配合冷淡的表情逃避中故作冷静

我相信第一次凝望你离开我的背影
就盼望立刻能够明天再相聚
不小心梦中让感觉能延续模糊中你最清晰

I believe in you 窥探那双迷人深情的眼睛
我的心留给你我的人在附近不必立刻作回应
不想爱的轻易需要让你动情因为怕你会离去
想念让人窒息所以不离不弃每分钟都要和你亲近

让你安全我可以寸步不离
自尊都不要我也置之不理
不想要未来有任何片刻回忆
Ooh I believe

第二天。。。

2008-12-05T11:28:00.006+08:00

今天是第二天的等待。。还是一样。。明天有Moral考试。。。我会加油。。我希望他也会加油哦。。通常我都是下午或晚上写的，今天变成早上写。。今晚应该会拼书到很晚吧。。希望他不要太迟睡哦，不然他会没有精神的。。。

真希望考试赶快过。。上个学期的我，很希望快点放假，但是这个学期的我，比较希望下一个新学期的到来。。我反而讨厌放假。。因为好像不能看到他，会觉得怪怪的。。明天可以看到他，我应该不会跟他说话吧。。让大家都冷静一下，认真思考我们的问题。。。

新学期一到，我应该会等到答案。。如果开学了，他没有告诉我他的答案，我也不知道该怎么办。。要提醒他吗？？还是当作一切没发生过？？我好像做不到。。这次的我很认真对待这件事，希望他也能认真对待。。

陶吉吉　－　普通朋友
“ 等待　我随时随地在等待　
　做你感情上的依赖　我没有任何的疑问
　这是爱 ”　

第一天。。

2008-12-05T00:24:00.012+08:00

等待是在这个世界上最痛苦的事。。但我不在乎，我愿意等。。我一定要得到答案，尽管是好或坏。。昨天的举动，让我好像放下心中的大石，也谢谢一个好朋友的鼓励，让我有勇气面对接下来的日子。。等待的日子满久的。。现在的我，只能用功读书。。你是我的推动力。。我会把考试考好，不让你担心我。。。也不会让你觉得内疚。。你也要努力读书哦。。先把问题摆一边。。昨天是我等待的第一天。。。今天的我，可能不会看到你。。虽然有点失望，但我会尽量压抑着，不让你看到我失落的脸。。看了之后，我希望你不要避开我。。不管多忙，我都会来这里记载一点一滴，和每一天等待的心情。。

有一首歌，一直在我脑海里打转。。我自己也不知道为什么。。是我的心情吗？？吴克群的“为你写诗”，里面有一部分歌词，好像是在诉说些什么。。

“ 爱情是一种怪事我开始全身不受控制
爱情是一种本事我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事第一件就是为你写诗 ”

“ 爱情是一种怪事你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情是一种本事我在你心里什么位置 ”

我想知道的是，我在你心里到底是什么？？

真复杂。。好烦哦。。

2008-12-03T01:52:00.021+08:00

我到底是在帮人还是在害人啊？？我未免做得太多了。。明明就不管我的事，为什么我要拿来烦自己啊，我到底是想怎样？？整件事让我搞到好像很复杂。。

原本我是想帮忙的，不知是不是越帮越忙。。我在烦恼，我是为了什么啊，是为了让你在生活上开心一点吗？？还是想把事情都解决，好让你专心读书？？还是为了其他原因啊？？我这么的关心和担心你，连我自己都不知道为什么。。你能告诉我吗？？

为什么男生总是不懂女生的心情？？女生对男生的感觉是不由自主地。。几时开始来的都不知道。。女生要的是希望有一个人在她身边照顾她，让她不孤单。。女生要的就这么简单。。这个男生，我真的不知道是要骂你才好，还是怎样？？都到了这个年纪，懂得怎样处理事情吧？？但是为什么我之前总觉得你在逃避。。逃避是不能解决问题的。。应该跟对方好好谈。。到了最后，还好我没看错你。。最后他把事情处理得很好。。真的。。你已经跟自己的心做了一个交待。。

我想我以后都不会再管你的事了吧。。如果我继续管，可能只会让你觉得我在多管闲事或是生气我。。我是你的谁啊？？好朋友吗？或其他？？？这样我到底在你心里属于哪一类啊？？还是只是一个再普通不过的朋友？？我也不知道。。能给我一个正确的答案吗？？我真的很想知道。。你对我到底是什么感觉？？你不说，我怎么会知道？？

还有就算我劝了，也不会改变什么。。你已经有解决事情的方法了。。不需要我了。。我知道你帮了我很多。。就算我欠你人情好了。。我不喜欢欠。。我会还的。。但我该怎么还？？能让我知道吗？？我只知道我能帮你多少，我就会帮。。是为了感觉吗？？是你对我的感觉，还是我对你的感觉？？复杂。。是朋友还是其他？？我自己都不晓得。。希望你能让我知道。。

我只是一个再平凡不过的女生，可是老天爷好像觉得我能承担一切，把历史一直重演，然后让我快受不了了，如果身边有可以依靠的人，那该有多好。。至少能在我快倒下的时候扶着我。。但我觉得老天真的在作弄我。。一直让我遇不到真爱。。到底谁才是那个能让我依靠的人？？好复杂。。是他还是他？？可能没有任何一人吧。。我已经不再期待什么。。哭了，就算了。。就算怎么等，老天爷还是不会让我好过的，我的真爱永远不会出现。。刚开始的我，是多么的相信命运，但现在的我，觉得命运作弄人。。。

好乱哦。。

2008-12-02T14:36:00.007+08:00

你对一个人说过，你没有喜欢的人，是真的吗? 你摸着你的心，老实的再说一遍?

我不信你没有对任何人有感觉。。明明就有。。可能你不想跟别人说吧。。我也没有权力要你告诉我啊。。可是我希望你能坦诚。。请你对你的心做一个交代。。不要让关心你的人为你担心。。

你可以说我是多管闲事，我不在乎。。如果你没有喜欢的人，那也许是我看错了和感觉错了，可是我对我自己有信心，应该没错。。如果你有仰慕的人，就应该对那人坦诚。。可能因为你太理智了，或者你在压抑自己的情绪，或你觉得还不是时候，或者你在装，我真的不知道。。。

梦和现实是相反的？是真的吗？就这样吧.....

2008-11-26T15:53:00.005+08:00

我到底是怎么了？？我是一个会在睡觉时做梦的人。。可是昨晚的梦让我感到不知所措。。从来没有一个梦是那么印象深刻。。当我醒来时，那个梦还很清楚地在我脑海里浮现。。做梦对我来说是家常便饭，可是很少会这么清晰。。。

听很多人说，梦和现实是相反的。。我知道。。我觉得那个梦的情景是不会发生在我身上的。。可能是老天爷要我放弃吧。。。所以才会让我有这场梦。在梦里的我是很开心的，因为我听到了我想听的话，在现实中是听不到的。。所以我无敌地开心快乐。。一起床，整个人都好有活力。。脸上一直带着微笑。。。我的室友还问我为什么我这么开心。。。。哈哈哈。。。。

在梦里，“他” 做了一些举动，“他”也说了我梦寐以求的话。。。我真的真的好开心哦。。。但那一切的一切都只是一场梦。。在现实是肯定不会发生。。俗话说：“梦和现实是不一样的”。。。可能老天已经给了我一点暗示吧。。我想太多了。。。毕竟梦不是真实的。。如果现实发生的话，我可能会开心到晕倒。。真的。。。

我尽量不去在意“他”。。可是好像怎么努力都办不到。。但我还是会很努力很努力。。。会加油的。。我知道了自己什么应该做，什么不应该做。。。清楚了。。。明潦了。。那就这样吧。。。

MY HECTIC WEEK

2008-11-18T21:01:00.007+08:00

This week is really a very hectic week...there got test 2 for my biology 2, mathematics 2 and basic computing...really feel like very stress and pressure...scare myself cannot reach my own target...and cannot get a good results....for me, now my mind is all fulled with education things....tests, presentations, final exam...they r very trouble me..but to fufil my dream....I am very willing to do that....haha.....

Today is my first paper for my test 2...that is Mathematics.....I think should be ok for me....but i got not enough time to finish it n double check it....haiz...but i think not so bad....at least i tried my best...no regret already.....

Tomorrow is my biology paper...I don't know why....I like Biology but the marks of it is not always very good.....need to study harder and harder....To study Biotechnology, I must have good Biology...so i need to "add oil " already...haha...Burn midnight oil somemore....hahahaha....but i consider before, if I cannot get good results for my Biology, mayb i will choose Food Science in my degree...now still got time can think....My Chemistry is the best in the three main Science subject....so let God decides it ....

The last test paper is my Basic Computing...that is the only subject that i scare...Because i am a idiot of computer programming things....a bit cannot handle...need to study harder, harder, harder....hope can do quite well on it....Wishing for myself all the best in my test 2, and the following tasks : assignments, presentations, and FINAL EXAM.....

busy month

2008-11-08T19:04:00.004+08:00

I mayb will very late to update this blog oredy...because starting need to study hard for my test 2, presentation, assignment and final examination already...i will work harder and harder..to achieve my target....and my dream..

study hard

2008-11-07T11:57:00.004+08:00

I just came back from class..today is my favourite subject : Mathematics class...I like it ...but got a bit don know so need to study hard to catch up...if not, i will be left behind of people...wat was going on the lecture? Just normal...Miss Ja taught us the new chapter..the last chapter i am not so clearly on it, so need to study ....haha...

Today, the whole class was so quiet..maybe everyone is very tired on studying...no energy to talk already...haha....

Now, in my heart, i only feel like i want to study..i really want to study hard so that i can successfully study the course that i want and can go to the university that i want...that is my target..also my dream...i realise this semester is quite hard compared to last semester beause i don like basic computing..haha....it is so boring and need to know many things about computer device...I think myself is a idiot of computer..haha...

I will not think about anything besides on study...for me, family is at the first place, friend is second and education is third...That's all...It is not convenient to speak out what is my actual dream but i hope my dream will come true.....Wishing.....

Boring day !!!

2008-11-02T18:41:00.006+08:00

Who can help me?? i am boring now....the whole day, i only online....nearly mad...listenng to music..feel sad...watching to video, i am also feel boring...ya...i am still studying my moral...next week got moral test..need to study harder so that can get a high mark, like tat, will not be so hard for me to face final...I need to buck up..i come here for study n not for fun..i regretted once...cannot regret again...

Study in overseas is my dream...i hope i can do it... i can stand it...i come here alone for study, no family member beside me...so i must learn how to become more independent...

i really need to study hard...

开心的假期

2008-10-29T21:37:00.018+08:00

好开心哦。。。好久没这么开心了。。这个假期，真的过得很充实。。要和中学补习班同学见面。。想到都很开心。。

一大早，音因就来载我。。好久没坐她的车了。。很多回忆哦。。以前每次她都会载我去补习。。我们一起到面之家去吃早餐。。我们的补习班就在楼上。。我们聊了很多心事。。有她的，有我的。。和音因聊天很开心。。想到以前一起补习的时候。。过后，我们就到 billion 去走走，边聊边逛，好自在。。我们聊到好开心。。音因，谢谢你陪我聊心事。。我舒服多了。。

我们想到要去咏诗家找她，二话不说，就驾车去了。过后聊了一会儿，就去找我的好‘ 哥哥 ’，佶阳。。我好久没看到他了，佶阳一上车，就说我越来越有‘ 福气 ’哦，我的好哥哥，不要以为我不懂，你在说我胖嘛，我下次就瘦给你看。。哈哈哈。。

我们坐着音因的车，去见淑莉和洧豪。淑莉和洧豪像以前一样。没什么变到。还是那么的甜蜜。是我出的主意，说要打保龄球。大家都玩得很开心，佶阳说不会打，还能打到最高分，未免也太厉害了吧！！我头头打得不错，越打越烂。哈哈哈。我们也拍了很多的照片，作为留念。

打了两场，大家手都有点痛，咏诗有事先走了，就剩下我们五个人。佶阳建议去唱 k 。大家也很有默契的说好。五个人坐在一个包厢里，唱着歌。我发现大家好像是把压抑已久的心情都唱出来。。是好的。在唱完那么多首歌之后，我们的喉咙都痛了，开始有一点没声音了，最后我可以听到淑莉唱歌，我真的是太开心了。。哈哈哈。第一次哦。

一整天下来，我觉得超开心，每个人都没什么变，只有佶阳变了，不是变坏，是变开朗了，我觉得现在的佶阳比较好，以前的太过压抑自己了。我真的好珍惜大家，希望我们的友谊可以永久，不会改变。

佶阳、音因、咏诗、淑莉、洧豪和我

淑莉、音因和我

My tuition friends...Yeah....

我讨厌我自己

2008-10-23T12:44:00.006+08:00

刚刚好像说错话了。。等到现在才知道。。好像有点太迟了。。。不知道他有没有在生气。。不好意思，我不小心说错话了。。我开始讨厌我自己。。为什么我每次说话都没经过大脑?? 该打！！！实在是太不小心了。。这真的是我的一大缺点。。也是我需要改进的地方。。我会努力的。。。也希望他不要生气才好。。。

我爱笨珍的人，事，物

2008-10-22T18:29:00.010+08:00

好开心哦。。这个星期五就能回笨珍了。。谁敢说笨珍不好，我觉得那个地方超好的。。有我的家人和很多对朋友的回忆。。那些回忆真的是太美好了。。中学的时候是我最开心的时候。。我怀念哦。。

在中学时，和咏诗、淑莉、侑豪、凤琦、音因、佶阳他们一起补安哥，真的好开心，好好玩哦。。安哥也会说笑话，让我们整班七十多位学生，笑得啼笑皆非。。安哥真的是我们的恩师。。没有他，我们不会考到这么好的成绩。。谢谢你，安哥。。

还有在学校，有嘉欣、慧慧、颖凡、惠雯、恬恬他们，让我觉得我不是孤单的一人。。每天都很开心的上学。。一起聊是非，一起去图书馆，一起疯。。那么美好的时光，几时还会再有呢?? 我好像回到那个时候。。

现在的我没有像以前那么开心，因为很少见到大家。。觉得怪怪的。。其实现在的我还不错。。不要担心我。。有nicole紫薇、siva, 志豪、senior政宇和 michelle 在照顾着我。。在inti的日子，才令我觉得还满不错虽然没有像以前那么的开心。。

好期待回笨珍哦。。有阿姨煮的菜。。好美味哦。。还有源成，我的宵夜有着落了。。还有肉骨茶和我最喜欢的猪脚醋。。。志豪，我知道你和我一样。。喜欢吃肥猪脚。。下次来找我。。我铁定会带你去吃。。还有很好吃的海鲜。。超美味的。。

我真的好期待我现在人就在笨珍。。。。。。

放弃了。。。

2008-10-21T13:34:00.004+08:00

好久没写了。。是时候写一写了。。看到朋友成双成对，自己看了就感到很开心。。哈哈。我也好想有哦。对一人有感觉，难道那就叫喜欢吗? 好难懂哦。我在想为什么我会拿这些事来烦自己。。为什么我要踩进那个无地洞呢?? 需要很长的时间才能爬上来。。我还在努力。。我爬得好辛苦。。应该回到现实了。。是时候放弃了。。回到刚开始的时候。。我会把一切当做是我生命中的美好回忆。。永远藏在我心里。。

Happy Holiday In KUALA PILAH

2008-10-12T17:56:00.008+08:00

Yeah,there was a holiday of Hari raya...On 30th Sept, i went to my uncle's house at Kuala Pilah, Negeri Sembilan...I think i have never been there about 8-10 years already...Miss there a lot..HAHA....After my class, i started to travel from inti to KP... by ktm n bus...I travelled by myself oh..So fun...

With a happy mood, i had my holiday...it was a raining day..why everytime i travel from one place to another, it will sure rainning one?? HEHE...But it is ok...i was still very happy...When i arrived KP, my uncle came n fetched me...Long time din see him oredy...n his family...feel very miss them....this was a really good holiday for me...

At there, uncle n aunt treat me very good...Aunt cooked a lot of delicious foods for me...so touched...happy because can eat a proper dinner..all of us sit together n had our dinner...Sometimes had some arguement between them but this is the way for them to build up the relationship...So loving...

The next day, my cousin sister told me that my aunt will give me a surprise...BBQ Party...Oh My God...I was so happy....In this party, all the neighbours came to uncle's house n had fun...all of the neighbours r very friendly...still got my another uncle came back from sabah n had fun together...wah, so nice oh...

I stayed in Kuala Pilah for about 5 days...at there, i didn't feel any pressure and i was so happy that i can go there for holiday..thanks for xiao jiu n xiao jiu mu...thanks for xiao jiu mu cooked so many delicious foods for me...OYISHI..thanks for Jun Kiat to fetch me to san jiu's house..thanks for zixuan n ziqi owis be wif me n had fun there...thanks for san jiu, san jiu mu, brian, zhi ming n zhi wei also....N all of the neighbours....

Next time if got any holiday, i will go there again...It is really very fun for me....

生命是什么？？？

2008-09-25T22:16:00.006+08:00

到底生命是什么？我真的不知道。真的是一门高深莫测的学问。好难懂。
[命中注定我爱你]里的纪存希说过：“生命就像一场赌注，不可能把把都赢，可是一有筹码，命运就在自己手里。听起来好像很容易，可是做起来，好难好难。

在我的生命里，有很多东西对我来说很重要，家人，朋友和爱情都有着自己重要的位置。我出世以来，我都在家人的呵护下长大，有如温室里的小花。家人都对我很好。尤其是我大姐，处处保护着我，在小学时，当我被别人欺负，她都会替我解围。在中学时，每当我学业一有困难，大姐都会帮我。大姐总会把最好的留给我们这些弟妹。大姐，你真的对我好好。我很感激，老天爷会给我这么一个好姐姐。大姐，我长大了，不用担心我。

为了不再当温室的小花，我选择出外读书，学习独立。视野变阔了，看的人也多了。了解了好多，慢慢地在长大。之前发生的一些事，让我知道这世界是残酷的，也让我知道要怎样生活。朋友对我来说是长久的，我不管别人是怎么想，我只知道你们永远是我朋友。还有，150 俱乐部的成员，你们是我的死党，我们的心永远都会关心着对方。

爱情嘛？真的是可遇不可求。一旦爱上了，只会把自己搞得遍体麟伤，很痛苦。可能看太多偶像剧，对爱情有憧憬。我总觉得被爱比爱人好。我是一个很相信命运的人。一切都看命运吧！喜欢一个人容易可是爱一个人好难。被人爱更难，而且我觉得这件事不可能发生在自己身上。

活在这世界上的人啊，希望家人对你好（像我一样），朋友把你当死党（像我一样），和发生一段美妙的爱情（可别像我一样哦）！！！

Tired Day...

2008-09-25T19:35:00.001+08:00

Today is really a tired day... I am so tired because yesterday did assignment until quite late.. almost sick la..headache.. but I still can stand it.. This morning, the first page of attendance list of our moral education was missing. So our cfes students suffered..A number of them cannot sign the list...Must wait until dismiss the class...Haiz...

Finally they signed it..After that, we still need to go computer lab to attend the computing lab session..BORING...And the lab exercise was so troublesome..I thought we can just copy and paste the article, but is WRONG... cannot la...So, v needed to type it word by word..Haiz...

The next tired session was the biology lab session.. We needed to take the iodine's solution, benedict's solution and others.. Some interesting things was happened..when some solution was added with NAOH and CUSO4, reaction was happened and formed many colourful liquid...So beautiful..

The one of the boring subject was coming to me..That is Basic Computing..Haiz..In the classroom, everyone was looked like so tired ..No mood to listen what was the lecturer talking about...Haha...Suddenly, chee hoe, did one thing which let me very admire him...Haha...That was ....erm...Play the RUBIK'S CUBE, which is also called magic cube..AMAZING..Before that, I felt like very tired but chee hoe, thanks for your entertainment..so that I would not feel so tired..Haha...Thank u..hoe, you are really nice la..haha...Is it very nice and amazing? Can see from the picture?

Very amazing right?? He played by himself...BRAVO....

Really is a very tired day..Because of the magic cube, let me a bit happy and an eye-opener...

My 18th Birthday Party

2008-09-23T01:30:00.004+08:00

I was too happy.. It was because i had a very surprising birthday party.. I didn't expect I can have a such good birthday party....This was the first time that got so many people ....So touched..And very surprising for me..Thanks u all..CFES gang ...

We did a barbecue session..CFES rented the BBQ place..And they prepared many kinds of food like sausages, sandwiches, chicken wings, and jelly..And we had a lot of fun there and everyone was so happy..Got nicole, sivany, victor, kent ren, louis, kah yuong, huei ying, melanie, yee teng, bee heng, yoyo, ryan, alvin, jet, chee hoe, michelle, ken, tien pui, angeline, premla, angelina, komalaa, darren, jason, fey, jun, ice and wee yuan...See, so many there..Thanks u all..really...I won't forget my 18th birthday..And mathew, I am sure you were not there but I am sure that your spirit was with us..

Yeah, CFES... PEACE>>>

WAH, still got my favourite dessert...That is CAKE..That is very very nice and delicious..I love it very much..And we took a lot of photos there...as memory....

Me, Melanie, Bee Heng, Yee Teng....

Sivany and I

Chee Hoe n Me

Ice, wee yuan, ken, ryan, yoyo, n I

Jet n Me

VIctor n Me

darren, angelina, komalaa n Me

Me, huei ying n kent

louis, kah yuong n me

jason, fey, jun, darren n Me

Very happy...thanks you all....and I still haven forgot my pontian good friend ....thanks for pontian friend who sent me sms n sang the birthday song to me..chee yong said I cannot hear but I can feel it..thank u... jia xin, ying fang, wee wee, hui wen, yin ying, chee yong, fong kee, su lee, and other who treat me so well... thanks...

I won't forget you all in my life...and I won't forget my 18th birthday party....thank u so much...Rock, CFES GANG...AND PONTIAN GOOD FRIEND...